For those of you that don’t know, yesterday was my 50th Birthday and I am currently doing a bucket list trip to Lapland in the Arctic Circle to see the Northern Lights. As I write this, I am thrilled to enter a new decade, but it wasn’t always that way.
Earlier this year I was absolutely freaking out over turning 50. It just made absolutely no sense to me and I could not wrap that number around my head. So I did what I tell you all to do; I let myself have months and months of tantrums and freak-outs. I didn’t judge them or myself, I just let myself melt down and resist the hell out of it. And then at a certain point, I was over that, and I made a brand new decision – that 50 would be fabulous!
Once that happened, a phrase came to me, “If not now, when?” To say that phrase changed everything for me would be an understatement; it truly was transformative. Here’s why: I am a procrastinator, always have been. I was the kid reading the summer reading books the evening before school started in September, or pulling all nighters in college to get my papers done. I am easily distracted, I’ll admit it. But something about that phrase gave me pause. Suddenly, after meditating, when glancing at that phrase, I do the visualizing I kept meaning to do. Those stomach exercises that I always felt would benefit my posture, I do them. And the myriad of little things I tend to put off, I do those too. That phrase brought me into the now in ways that nothing else had, and made me realize that in order to create the future I wanted, I needed to participate more fully in my present.
I still need to read that phrase everyday so I have it across from me where I work and meditate. And oddly, it gives me comfort- a total procrastinator finding comfort in no longer putting things off?, wow. So while it’s only been maybe 5 months of this, it is definitely my new motto and certainly the way I am choosing to enter a fabulous new decade.
So here’s to the now, and here’s to writing new rules for aging. Yes, my 50s are gonna be fabulous!
Me, Tina Germain, just sharing ways to make you the best you can be!