I remember the first time I felt shame around being a female. It was the summer after third grade, and I was developing early. At summer camp, other girls made fun of me. It was so confusing because up until then, I loved being in a girl body. I wore dresses all the time, I wore pink, I celebrated being a girl. But suddenly, I felt shame. I felt unsafe. I didn't fit in with anyone else and was ostracized. And then ultimately, I was bullied in fourth grade. It seemed that overnight, I went from loving dresses, to wearing baggy sweatshirts and anything to hide my body.
 
That theme continued, teaching me to rely on my masculine energy, rather than my feminine. Ultimately, this led to intense feelings of rage and an eating disorder in high school, most likely because I was denying a part of myself. I pulled out of my heart and body and went into head; it felt safer that way.
 
This is one of the reasons I'm so good at working with rage, I know that energy firsthand. And I know how it can proliferate when you are either suppressing a part of you and being “good,” or when it's the only way you know to be heard.
 
In my early 30's, I came to the channeled work of Lazaris. In one of the first lectures I heard, Lazaris spoke of The Goddess. And not one of the goddesses that I was obsessed with in my 20's such as Aphrodite, Athena, or Isis. No, this was The Divine Co-creator with God. As equals.
 
Now, for some of you that concept isn’t unusual, but when growing up Catholic and being taught that priests (men) were the only ones who could be the intermediary to God- who was a singular male- plus all the church and societal messaging of women as less than, suddenly hearing someone speak of The Goddess as being the ultimate creator and God being her co-creator, that was pretty mind blowing.
 
This started a deep dive into wanting to heal those feminine wounds.
 
I still remember sobbing during the first meditation in which Lazaris had us meet and be embraced by The Divine Feminine energy. I felt so shameful, as if I wasn't worthy to receive that beautiful love. That is a wound of the patriarchy.
 
It took me a long time to heal the shame from this lifetime, as well as from lifetime after lifetime of being persecuted as a woman or having no say in marriages or in one's life.
 
Those scars are still evidenced in today's world. There are still arranged marriages. In many places, a woman is secondary to a man and less than. In some places, under the control and whims of her father. And yet, The Divine Feminine is rising again. But this time, to be in balance with The Divine Masculine. Not the distorted view of the masculine we’ve been taught- the Divine Masculine. So that together, we can co-create a new paradigm. And in order to do that, we need to heal from both the personal and collective scars and wounds of many thousands of years. But we’re doing it already. Because it's not just women who have suffered. Men are also at the sufferance of the patriarchy and the rigors of chauvinism. But for today, I'll speak to the women.
 
Because of this, I paired up with my dear friend and fellow healer Elizabeth Hyer Rose to create a course to help women connect to The Divine Feminine and their own feminine. The beauty of their feminine. Because I know personally that as you begin to welcome in that energy and you feel the healing aspects of it, everything changes.
 
I'm still healing it; it’s a work in progress. But I can tell you that my connection to The Divine Goddess has absolutely transformed my life in beautiful ways. The most profound is that there's no way I would have been able to meet my husband if I hadn't done the deep healing of releasing old female wounds. As I did, I was ready to be an equal partner in total balance with somebody who owns a beautiful frequency of The Divine Masculine. Connecting to my Divine Feminine has also expanded my heart and helped me to heal my rage to ultimately come from a much more loving place.
 
If this sounds appealing to you, join Elizabeth and me next Wednesday October 9th at 5:30 Pacific for a free introductory class in which we connect you to the Goddess. Then if you want to dive deeper, we have a four-week course coming up. Click on the links below to learn more about both.

FREE Class

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Since this has come up multiple times in sessions recently, I wanted to point out that the greater the change you experience, the greater the potential disruption to your system. And by system I mean your body, your thoughts, your emotions, your energy levels- all parts of you.
 
It's not unusual to feel depression after a huge event, even if that event is good. Even if it's a positive. I learned this decades ago from Lazaris, a channeled entity similar to Abraham Hicks.
 
I first experienced this after getting married. Even though I knew what Lazaris had said, I couldn't quite reconcile why I was feeling a weird depression after such a beautiful wedding. But it was because for a year before the event, I expended a huge amount of energy, planning, imaginings, and focus on that event. When it was over, it was a letdown to my whole being. And I don't mean letdown as in it's a bad thing, I mean all my energy that had been so wrapped up in something, now needed to wind down. Sudden change, from massive planning to regular life, is disruptive, and that can cause depression.
 
This also came up when we moved back into our house after a nine-month remodel. It took me a full month to release the depression. And luckily that time, I understood where the depression was coming from and didn’t judge it. I simply needed to allow it and be in it. Which wasn’t fun but when we don’t fight what is and we surrender to it, it moves through much more quickly.
 
I know from the outside it doesn't look rational to feel depressed after amazing experiences. Remember that rational comes from logic and the mind, and that’s not where this depression originates. It comes from the emotions and energy systems. As I said above, when you’ve spent so much of your time, energy, and focus on creating something, once you get it, there’s a period of what feels like a void, where all your energy and focus doesn't have a new place to go yet.
 
It doesn't mean you don't want that incredible thing you worked so hard to create, it doesn't mean something’s wrong with it or you, it simply means you need to recalibrate. You need to sit in the newness and allow all parts of you to catch up.
 
I want you to be aware of this so you can remember it and so that you don’t judge yourself if you experience it. The depression will release and turn to joy, just give it time.


I made a video on this subject. Click Here to Watch.

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In my blogs, I’ve written a lot over the years about the power of your light and The Light when it comes to anything dark, both internal and external- i.e., fears, worst case scenarios, negativity, etc. 
 
There's a fear-based misperception that anything dark can overtake anything of light. It's a huge lie. 
 
Today, I speak to that while teaching you a couple techniques. This impromptu video stems from a client session I recently had where this topic came up again. 
 
The video is only 5 minutes long, but it’s a powerful reminder you may need to hear, and a way to connect more deeply to your Soul.
 
 Look at my video on "Taking Your Power Back" on YouTube for further assistance, or any prior blogs under the category, "Owning Your Light." May this be hugely empowering!


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I’ve been hearing from so many of you that you’re in a crisis and that you’re having trouble coping.
 
A crisis can be mental, spiritual, emotional, or physical. It’s when nothing you do is working, when everything seems to be falling apart, and when your stress levels are off the chart.
 
For those in that situation, I made a new YouTube video taking you through many rounds of EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique, also known as Tapping) to release the crisis and anchor you to your Truer Self on the other side of crisis.

Some of what I say during the sequence you may not be feeling at the moment, but it might be present in your body. If some of my words really don’t resonate, then change them.

 If you aren't in a crisis, save this blog as a reminder for if/when you do need help.


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I'm a really good problem solver. It's why I love teaching you solutions and giving you tools. I think it's incredibly empowering to shift whatever’s going on in one's experience of reality.
 
What I'm not so great at, is sitting in the discomfort when things aren't clear. When I can't solve an issue. When an emotion or aspect of myself simply needs to be experienced, rather than moved through.
 
That’s tough for me. And I know I’m not alone in this.
 
It can be disconcerting to not figure out what’s going on energetically. Yet sometimes, the resolution can only come from getting out of the mind (the figuring out) and into the body, in the stillness with what is, rather than what we want it to be.
 
My inner child has been very vocal with her fears lately. And most days, I simply need to sit with and hold her. Do I want to fix the situation/her? Oh totally! However, I don’t want to train my subconscious that she (me) is broken when she simply needs to be held and supported. She needs to know I’m here, listening.
 
It’s not always the inner child being vocal, sometimes it’s an emotion such as sadness or anger that keeps taking your attention. Or your inner adolescent feeling rebellious.
 
So, if you've been in a similar situation lately or next time you are, put your hands over your heart. Breathe into your heart space for a moment. Settle your consciousness there.
 
Be present with yourself. Presence begins the healing process.
 
Keep breathing and hold space for yourself with kindness and compassion.
 
Then ask yourself what you most need. And don't expect that the answer will be to do something. Maybe what you must need is to take a walk, or just breathe more, or allow the discomfort and the feelings. Maybe what you most need is to be present with the parts of yourself that feel the angst.
 
If it feels appropriate, ask what it's trying to tell you. And again, maybe what it's most trying to tell you is just that it needs to be heard. That your feelings need to be validated in a way that they weren't validated when you were a child. Maybe parts of you simply need to be honored because they exist. All parts of you are valuable, even the parts that you would deem unworthy or as holding too much pain.
 
As you breathe into your heart, hold space for all those parts to be exactly as they are in the moment. Not trying to fix them or make them better, just letting them know that they're all lovable.
 
As I said earlier, easier said than done, but the more I've done that for myself, the more profound the changes are after allowing what is versus trying to fix myself.
 
To me, that’s the very definition of grace. Give yourself that grace as well.

With so many people on their phones all the time, we've stopped seeing the world. And when we do look up, we see what our belief system shows us. But is that really seeing or simply being aware of things that support our expectations?
 
We need a reset to see from a fresh perspective.
 
Sarah Tacy taught me the beginning part of this exercise in presence. It builds upon techniques I've shared before. 

​Right now, really see your surroundings from a neutral perspective, without story. Look around your room. What do the walls look like? Pause and notice the walls. Now notice something you like in your room. Really look at it and feel the feelings surrounding that item.
 
If you’re at work and nothing makes you smile in your environment, stick with what’s neutral.
 
If you have a window, look outside. Do you see nature? If not can you imagine nature? Observe nature for a moment. There’s no story with nature. The Oak tree isn’t hoping it becomes an Oak. The flowers live their individual purpose and beauty.
 
If you can, step outside and breathe the air. Notice if it's hot or cool and if there's a breeze. Look at the leaves if there are trees around you, or a flower, or the grass. Maybe it's more of a desert environment and you see a lot of brown. Calibrate yourself to nature, if and when you can.
 
Regardless of whether you’re outside or at your desk, now feel your feet on the ground. Take a moment to feel your body. Feel the temperature in the room. Pause for a moment and listen to the sounds around you.
 
Engaging the senses further enhances your presence and grounding, in addition to calming your nervous system. When we're on devices a lot, we stop tuning into our environment. We stopped seeing the little miracles that could be there. But if you attune yourself to seeing more, not only will you become more present, but you’ll actually see more that there is to see.
 
This week, step out of the stories, step into gentle neutral observation, and notice whole new worlds opening to you. Your Future Self thanks you.


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I had a different blog for today that just needed a little polishing, but then I got slammed with a brutal cold and couldn’t think clearly enough to finish it. In my acceptance of being under the weather, I realized that rather than judging myself and asking what was wrong with me that I got sick, I chose to tell a new story of expansion around this illness. I've been stretching a lot lately and I believe that some old, limiting stuff needed to shake out. And maybe I needed the extra downtime to aid that.
 
I’m willing to see this as an opportunity to give myself more love as I rest and take care of me. I think we forget that when we get sick. We blame the body or go into reaction, rather than holding a sacred space of healing for ourselves.
 
But, holding the body in love and gratitude are the very things needed to more gracefully move through whatever is going on physically.
 
So, find a way to hold a sacred space for yourself today. Maybe that means resting when you’re tired, going for a walk, exercising, quiet time, or simply enjoying the summer weather. And if you do feel under the weather in anyway, give your body the extra love it needs. That's the way to heal beautifully.

I was thinking about more of what I wanted in this 2nd half of the year, when I thought to myself that I already knew my word for next year. And then I realized, "Why wait?! What a crazy thought! Why postpone what I want?"
 
Choosing a word for the year isn’t set in stone and my word was no longer inspiring me. So, I made a new choice. (For those new to this blog, click here to read an exercise I have everyone do each December)
 
We can always make new choices and goals! Especially when we’re no longer motivated or inspired by previous ones.
 
I heard something recently, which I hadn’t thought about before, that some people visualize goals with specifics. They see the concrete steps and accomplishments. For example, "I will do X, Y, & Z to create X amount of money in the next 3 months."
 
That specificity motivates and excites them. They need that for their creations. I have a client who has a weight loss goal, and she knows her steps and plan to achieve that, down to the details of daily exercise and foods.
 
Now, there’s another camp that I’m part of, where we have an idea of what we’d like to create, but it's the energies that we're desiring that are more of the pull. For example, "I’d like to ultimately see X in my reality, while in all areas, feel more freedom, more joy, more fulfillment and expansion."
 
The energies are the motivators with the goal being present, but the specifics open. For example, using my client above, personally, her specificity would cause me resistance. So for those like me, the phrasing could be, "I'd like to feel fantastic and healthy in my body. Every day I'm going to acknowledge something I love about myself and do some sort of movement that makes me feel joyful, even if it's just dancing around the house for 5 minutes."

Or for another example, if your word is self-love, you could ask, "what action or non-action would be most self-loving today?" There's more fluidity in both these examples, rather than specific action steps.

(See my blog titled “The List” for more ideas on creating a desired outcome using both energies and specifics)
 
Neither is better than the other, the question is, which style motivates you?
 
For those who created their word for the year, how are you doing with it, and does it still serve you? Is that the frequency you want for the rest of the year and if not, change it like I did!
 
And whether you did or did not come up with a word, think about how you'd like to feel in this next half of the year and imagine one goal that would make you feel accomplished. Something within your power to create. Then write it out and either with specifics, or feeling into the energy of it, look at it daily and allow it to inspire you. To help you reach for more.

Let's make the 2nd half of 2024 incredible!

In honor of the 4th of July here in the States tomorrow, it's everyone's fave- Oracle Cards!

As per usual, there were very specific directions as to how the cards wanted to be pulled so:

If you're game to play today, then read this slowly & follow along! No jumping ahead!!
 
Breathe… and put your hands over your stomach. 
Open to your intuition.
Close your eyes for a moment and settle into yourself, then open them and read this next sentence:
 
“Which color holds the most blockages for me right now, and is simultaneously the key to greater freedom in my life?”

Your choices are red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, and violet.
 
You can keep your eyes open or close them. Let the color shape shift and change. Once it settles, you'll know it's the truth. Stay out of your mind and be in your gut knowing. 
 
Trust the answer, then read your Oracle card below. 
 
The question I asked the cards was, "what does the person who picks i.e., red, most need to know or release to bring greater freedom into their life?"
 
These do correspond with the chakra centers. Fill that chakra extra with its color and imagine the blockages releasing. Be cognizant of this area for the next few weeks and feed it light.
 
Be aware that because I asked what blocks freedom, some of the cards aren’t pretty regarding what's tripping you up. So, if you're feeling like you only need a positive card, maybe wait to pull.

That being said, some of the cards that are clear on what's blocking you, have a second card that shows what can happen when you release the blockage.
 
Happy Picking and Here's to Greater Freedom!!!

Red Oracle Card

Orange Oracle Card

Yellow Oracle Card

Green Oracle Card

Blue Oracle Card

Indigo Oracle Card

Violet Oracle Card


For those who watch fireworks, imagine your blockages releasing with every explosion!