This past week I was in resistance. Like, knockdown, drag out, resistance to everything, resistance. It felt like I had sunk into all the lesser parts of me – self-pity, blame, perfection, fear, control – you name it. And what was below all this meltdown? Massive change coming. Sometimes we forget that when we are on the verge of incredible changes, all the lesser parts of us, and most specifically our negative ego, will do everything in their power to stop us from moving forward. And that’s what happened. How do you get through those times? You start by forgiving yourself. Because I was in such a spiral, all I could do every day was to acknowledge and forgive myself for being in the self-pity, and fear, etc., without judgment. Recognizing that something was going on deep inside, I could either keep fighting it, or surrender to it and work through and process those emotions. So I sunk into my fears, and my blame etc. and I threw tantrums and let them have their say. Once I did that and gave them a voice, then I turned my attention to the more of me and the light of me, and let that be the resounding energy. Then I was able to shift. I had to acknowledge the dark, but give much more weight to the light. And I didn’t even have a name for the light, it was simply a feeling and an awareness of the more empowered me.
So the next time you’re stuck in deep, dark emotions and you can’t seem to get yourself out, after giving them a voice, just sit and shift your attention to the light; the light of you and the light in you. Let that be the dominant feeling/focus. Because light is always more powerful than darkness.
Me, Tina Germain, just sharing ways to make you the best you can be!