A few weeks ago, I sent out a blog about “Alleviating Kickback,” in which I spoke of personal healing. Well, unfortunately a week after I sent it, my infection came back; it had never really healed to its core. 
 
Why do I share this? Because sometimes we can think that we’ve healed an issue, only to have it come roaring back. And it doesn’t mean we’re bad or wrong, it means we're human and there are layers to issues.
 
I’ve talked with enough of you to know that many people want a quick fix or want to be healed immediately and thereby feel shame if that doesn’t happen. But time is part of the healing process. In the continued healing of the infection, I uncovered issues from lifetimes ago that needed excavating and releasing. The infection wasn’t here out of cruelty, it was still present to bring my attention to the deeper blockages that needed clearing.
 
If you’re dealing with a physical issue, instead of getting angry at it or punishing yourself for it, have compassion for yourself. Ask what message or healing it needs.
 
If you keep berating yourself and getting mad, the stuck energy is going to get more and more entrenched. Whereas if you send forgiveness and light, you can uncover it and let it go. 
 
Maybe there’s a deep, deep wound that needs healing and attention. You have to identify it and do whatever technique is appropriate in order to move through it.
 
Remember, if it took lifetimes to build or even just this lifetime, that’s a lot of energy built up over time. It may be complex and will take time to heal to its core.
 
I recently heard Eileen McKusick say, “If your whole life has been spent in your pain body and your wounds, you have no idea what your light body and being centered looks like. It’s a process to move from your pain body to your light body. It happens in pieces.”
 
Think about that- it happens in pieces. Patience, nurturing, love, self-care; all these will aid the pieces in reforming into your light.
 
You are your best healing medicine. You make the choices and send the love to yourself. No one outside you can do that. So today, send love to the places stuck in pain and be willing to integrate them back into your light. Be gentle with yourself as you come into wholeness.

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​In sessions if I’m doing a Soul retrieval, I need to go to a very dark place, a dark place where the pain has gotten stuck. It can be easy to get stuck in that dark place, a place of perpetual pain, hurt, and despair.
 
When I begin to pull someone out of the dark place, when the light touches them, it’s painful. That high level frequency of pure love and light is too much for the intense darkness. It doesn’t want to be in the light, and yet, it’s the very thing that can bring profound healing.
 
In a frequency of incredible love, I always witness as the person’s Higher Self and The Goddess herself, take over to pull that Soul aspect out of the dark place and into the light.
 
While there’s the initial pain and resistance, once that aspect of Soul is held in the light again, it completely transforms. It becomes powerful and radiant. It simply forgot what it was like to be an aspect of the light. Once transformed, once integrated back into the whole, it won’t go back to that illusion and dark place of separateness.
 
On a greater level, always feel your feelings fully and excavate them so they cannot control you, but don’t get stuck in them. Especially the dark ones. Because the longer you stay in the dark, the more you forget there’s a possibility of light. And not only does the world need your light, but you need to remember your light. 
 
Within that light is your love, your happiness, your joy, and your ability to be stronger and more powerful than any darkness going on in the world.
 
Imagine a world in which we all did that, in which the energy of love was so strong it eradicated the darkness by its very presence. 
 
Open the door wider to the light. Welcome it, accept it into your heart. And then let it be bigger than the darkness. 

There are unspeakable tragedies in the world right now; it’s enough to make you want to scream or curl up in a ball and hide under the covers. And maybe you need to do either, or both.
 
You can’t turn a blind eye, but neither can you let it consume you and take you down a dark rabbit hole. 
 
When you feel helpless, take action. Any positive action to bring your light and your hope to the situation.

​For some that may mean literally being amongst the ground crew; working to bring awareness by volunteering, protesting, or running for office. For some, that may mean financial contributions. For others, it might mean helping and healing the situation energetically. None are more/less valuable than others, they’re simply various ways you’re best equipped to help.
 
Yesterday’s tragic shootings are the latest in the more recent onslaughts. Gun violence may be where your Soul calls you to participate to bring healing and create change. Maybe you’re compassionate about that issue, but the drought and climate change are the areas that draw you in. Maybe it’s the Ukraine, the war on Women’s rights, the continuation of Covid, or the shortage of food in Africa. It might be a combination of these or many other issues.
 
You won’t be effective though if you spread yourself too thin. If you try to help everyone everywhere, you’ll burn yourself out.
 
There are so many areas that need your compassion and light- so pick a few and focus there. When you want to hide and give up, choose to show up instead, even if not literally in person.
 
It can be overwhelming, but as much as possible, don’t allow it to be. 
 
Take your power back and choose to be even more of a light in a world seemingly filled with darkness. 
 
And it is seemingly because if you actually look, there’s more light than ever before, but it can be hard to see. 
 
So look for it, choose to see it. Even the tiniest act of kindness brings more light. Be that for the world. You incarnated during this time for a reason- because you bring something to the world that it needs.
 
Take care of you first, then shine like you’ve never shone before. 

I’ve told you this before, but it bears repeating, especially with the situation in the Ukraine:
 
You matter.
 
Your thoughts matter.
 
Your words matter.
 
The vision you have for the world matters.
 
When you’re stuck in blaming and complaining, you perpetuate a frequency of powerlessness. But you’re not powerless.

Yes, you can get angry, yes express your fears, yes process through everything you’re feeling, and then take your power back. Be the light for those enmeshed in darkness; send them light, send the situation light.

​Be in your center, and in your power. Watch your judgments and any desires to be righteous and let those go. Choose to hold the space for healing, for peaceful resolution. You are most effective when you emanate a frequency of love; do this for all involved. Declare what you desire to see instead of pain, instead of suffering, and feed that positive outcome.
 
You affect the whole. You can say you’re just one person but what if everyone said that? Instead, be the person who has hope. Who holds the light of hope even when things seem dark. Who sends the light to the places that most need it. Who imagines that light being like a flashlight, driving out the darkness.
 
It’s up to you how you create the future; it can be dark, or it can be filled with light. The choice is yours. Will you join me in the light?
 

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With everything going on in the world right now, it’s easy to slip into despair, rage, and blame. You need to process through your pain underneath the emotions coming to the surface, because for a lot of us, those emotions are intense. Many of you have told me that your emotional responses lately aren’t rational. I know for myself, irrational levels of perfection energy fueled a rage response the other evening that was completely unwarranted to the actual situation at hand. 
 
So, what to do? Recognize that you’re being impacted by the events in the world. Maybe it’s the fires, Covid, Afghanistan, Haiti, or elsewhere. Honor that you feel the pain from those situations, even if you're not consciously aware of it. That pain is triggering your own personal pain.
 
What about the issue that most upsets you, triggers you? If it’s Covid or the fires, maybe you feel fear which triggers a lack of safety. If it’s Afghanistan, maybe you acutely feel the loss of freedom for the people there, especially the women and girls, and the domination energy causes you rage.
 
Once you recognize what in you is being triggered, you can work on your personal issues so that you become part of the solution. 
 
Take your power back and pull yourself out of blame. Remember that you matter and you’re on this planet at this time to add your voice and energy to a world becoming new. No, we didn’t know how intense this time would be when we signed up to come and be in a body, but you’re here so you agreed to it. You are not a victim. You agreed to bring your particular light and healing energies to the world the way only you can.
 
That might mean taking physical action by helping refugees or firefighters etc., or it might mean that you take a moment every morning to send healing light and support to the area that most draws you. It might seem minimal, but any way that you add your energy has impact. And that includes any negativity you put out. 
 
If Covid has you riled up, focus on the virus disappearing. 
 
With the fires and hurricanes, focus on balanced elements and healing the planet.
 
With Afghanistan, focus on the freedom of the people.
 
Whether it's these issues or others, focus on the solution. On the highest outcome for the good of all. Don’t get stuck on it turning out the way you fear it might, or on the way you think is best- that’s control. Focus on the peace behind the issue. The healing. The freedom. Then ultimately, bring in the love. Be the conduit for luminous change.
 
Breathe out your pain, and breathe in the light. Do that consistently.
 
If you need extra help with personal issues surfacing, here are some previous blogs to assist you:
The Ladder of Emotions
A Map for Calm in the Face of Chaos
Anger Release Techniques
7 Techniques to Help You Transcend Your Fears
12 Ways to Alleviate Anxiety and Panic
 
 
As dark as it may feel sometimes, the hope isn’t gone, it just might be covered up. Be the light, be the hope for the world. The more you vibrate there, the more there is for others.
 
 
 

​I write a lot about being the light and the light being more powerful than the dark. 

What I’ve been observing/learning more and more, is how a strong third chakra is necessary to creating a strong outer boundary. The third chakra is located in the stomach area, its color is yellow. The third chakra deals with issues of personal power.
 
The biggest obstacle to a healthy and vibrant third chakra is feeling powerless, which leads to a lack of boundaries and a more permeable energy field, whereby you take on everything in your surroundings. The antidote is being so fortified within yourself, that nothing penetrates in. 
 
In regard to what I said at the top about the light being more powerful, it’s helpful to realize what may be stuck in your space that says the opposite. Sometimes it’s from past lives, or this one, of believing that you’re here to be a warrior against the dark. That it’s necessary for you to battle evil and put yourself in harm’s way in order to prove your worth. Think about religion telling you fight the devil. Remember, what you battle, sticks to you. If you were taught that Satan (darkness) is so powerful that you don’t stand a chance, no wonder you don’t believe in your power to change things. 
 
Even if you didn’t grow up in a religious household, the idea of an all-powerful devil is in the collective consciousness, so you’re not immune to its influence. 
 
Beyond that, many times powerlessness stems from when you were a child and you felt helpless against the adults or “authority” figures in your life. They felt so big and looming, and you were unable to protect yourself as they had all the control. That translated into being powerless to protect yourself against anything outside of you.
 
When you’re stuck in powerlessness, you’re outside the third chakra, off to the left. Outside the body on the right side of that chakra, is anger and rage. Sometimes you ping-pong between the two. And sometimes feeling powerless can create feelings of anger. When you’re stuck in either emotion, you’re not in your body.

One of the places intuition comes from is your gut, so you want to have your energy there. The third chakra also corresponds to the upper part of your digestion system so if you have repeated digestive distress, that’s another clue that you need to clean out what’s stuck in there emotionally or energetically. 
 
I’ve talked about how to pull your power back, you can reference it here, and that’s something you need to do often. Think about how much you give your power away to anyone/anything in your reality. You give people the power to affect your mood. You give people you’ve never met on the news the power to shift how you perceive reality. When you're externally focused, you leak power left and right; call that power back.
 
Put your hand over your stomach right now. Feel your consciousness sinking into that space. Notice if you're critical of your stomach area and release those feelings. Send love there. Send your energy there. Imagine your energy as a ball of radiant yellow light, like a sun. Let that massive sun part of you expand into that space.
 
Recognize if part of your energy is off to the left or off to the right and pull it out of anger, pull it out of powerlessness- pull it into center. Be in your center. Be in your power. 
 
As you come into that chakra, it might feel like that ball of radiance is very teeny tiny, or maybe nonexistent. Don’t judge it, start feeding it. If it’s nonexistent, call your power back from everywhere and everything you gave it away to throughout your life. Keep stoking that fire. The third chakra is also the seat of will. And if that fire has gone out, you’re not going to have the willpower to do what you want. 
 
Imagine more and more of your light coming in and filling the space of your third chakra. You can create a shield around you like I’ve taught you, but you also need a radiant shield coming from within. Dark energy may still occasionally get through because as I like to remind you, you’re human. However, the more you can fortify and embody your third chakra, the more impenetrable your outer boundary will be. 
 
There’s a big influx of light coming onto the planet and it’s been that way for a while now. Things are shifting and changing. How do you want to create this new earth? Do you want to continue giving your power away to everyone else’s images and maybe their dystopian ideas? Or do you want to claim your power and the vision you have of beauty and goodness and harmony? Stop giving away your power, and own your future. Your light is indeed more powerful than any dark.
 
 
 

I want to address a big fallacy: that the more filled with light you are, the more the dark will try to harm you. 
 
When someone who’s seemingly so wonderful gets taken down, the consensus is that they were so bright, that that’s why they got attacked energetically. That their light attracted the darkness. 

That’s a total lie! It’s your belief system that draws negative energies/people to you, not how light and bright you are. 
 
What a perfect way to control a person; than to make them believe that their light attracts darkness. What a great way to keep someone feeling small and powerless.
 
The dark, energies and people, hate when you’re happy and laughing, they won’t want to be around you. Dark energies/people aren’t moths to a flame, that flame could burn away their darkness/pain and if someone is entrenched in theirs, they’ll avoid the light at all cost. They may try to tear you down at first, but if you don’t allow it, if you stay empowered and grounded in your light, they’ll go away.

When you own your light and your empowerment from your core, that becomes a radiance that is more powerful than any darkness around you. Think of a flashlight or a candle in a dark room: the darkness can't overtake the light; the light eradicates it.

Eileen McKusick says, “Let your radiance be like a bug zapper for bad energy.” This will also help you from getting into the victim mentality that other’s darkness can bring you down.
 
I’ve made a game of this at times; if someone’s super crabby, I’ll kill them with kindness and be extra happy. I used to do this a lot when I waited tables. Why? Because am I going to allow pissy people in my reality to ruin my mood? Hell no, I’m not giving them that power. 
 
Look, that’s not always possible and sometimes people get under your skin, but when you can, in your head say, “No, I don’t allow you to ruin my day/energy.” And in those cases, just be happy as a clam. Either they’ll go away because they don’t want to be around you, or they’ll transform. Which is ultimately very satisfying, but not always possible. You can’t take someone else’s mood personally because you don’t know what’s going on in their reality.
 
Negativity cannot stick to you when you keep your vibration clear and strong. Yes it can impact you, but you can kick it out easily if you refuse to allow it to drag you down. You are in charge of your energy; don’t let someone else mess with it. Shine your light even brighter.
 
 
 
 

​If I’ve done my job this year, then you’re starting to feel/own more of your light. 
 
You realize that you’re not your body, but a magnificent being of light. You know that no one has power over you, except the power you give them. You realize to question everything and adapt it for you. You’re owning more of the truth that you are enough and you’re owning more of your worth. You’re understanding that The Divine is in you, not outside of you. That all of your answers are within. And it’s safe to trust your gut. 
 
My hope is that you’re waking up to the beliefs and lies that have kept you enslaved and shackled in any form. That anything your mind or anyone/anything external says about you not being enough or being powerless or not mattering is a lie- one meant to keep you under control. 
 
As you own your light and who you truly are, you’ll be free on a myriad of levels and that threatens your negative ego and anyone invested in your subservience. But you no longer fit in the box you’ve been in. You’re more than that. You don’t need to be defined by your limitations, instead begin to define yourself by your love, by your caring, by your desire to see/do good in the world. 
 
Yes it’s great to achieve but you’re not your achievements; you’re your inner growth, conscious awareness and evolution. Your value lies within, not without. 
 
And simultaneously to all this, you’re human so you will make mistakes. That used to be an idea of horror to me; the need for perfection to feel safe and not humiliated was huge. But that’s not life. The key is how you handle your mistakes and are they really mistakes or opportunities for growth? Can you change your perspective on that? 
 
When you own all facets of you, your light and your dark, and you send more and more light to the dark places within, you shine like a diamond. 
 
Yes you’ll still feel grief, pain, and anger etc. because you’re human!! It’s part of the package. And you can allow more fun, freedom, and love because that is part of it too.
 
Loosen the bonds around you, open to more of the light and what you do want to experience. Take your attention away from you don’t want and put all your focus on what you do want. 
 
This is a time of increased consciousness, allow it in and shine.
 
 

I have absolute faith in the future. Unwavering and complete faith. I have total faith in the world becoming new.
 
How, you might ask? Because I have chosen it, over and over, and I feed the future I want to see for the world, with not only my energy and attention, but also with my love and light. 
 
I know we didn’t come all this way to have things fail. And by “all this way,” I mean lifetimes of soul growth and conscious evolution. I certainly didn’t. 
 
We’re birthing a new world. A NEW world. That doesn’t happen overnight. The old Piscean age model of “power over” needs to crumble and be cleared out to make way for a new way of being: one of co-creation and cooperation with each other, and with the planet.
 
I know some of you may not see this. Some of you only see darkness and destruction. You aren’t able to see the light of possibility. Fear has won over your imagination. 
 
But it doesn’t have to be that way. Remember, you create your reality. You. Not government leaders, not anything external, you.
 
What do you want to see for the world? And do you want your negative ego/your fear to be in control? Or do you want to choose and consciously look for the light and let that win? 
 
It’s a choice. You choose how you see the world. Do you choose to see the problems, or focus on the solutions?
 
I’m not in denial of all that needs healing in our country and the world- not even close. If you’ve followed me long enough, you know that I’m not all love and light. I absolutely remind you that you have got to deal with your own personal darkness and excavate your rage and pain etc. 
 
You can’t just go right to a positive attitude if you don’t believe it. If you can only see through the eyes of fear, acknowledge that, work on it, and clear those energies out. If you feel dread, if you feel powerless, if you feel threatened - work through all of them. You’ll see in the world that which mirrors your beliefs.
 
If you’re tied to seeing the dark, what part of you has abdicated power? What part wants to, or is stuck in, seeing the nightmare? What do you get from that path? It might not be pretty: 
Maybe self-pity- “Omg look how awful others are. Poor me, I live in this dark reality.” 
Or blame- “I have no say, they’re doing it to me, to the world, it’s their fault.” 
Or rage that feeds righteousness- “They’re bad and wrong so I need to fight them and punish them back.” 
 
These are just a few examples, and none of them are pleasant, but you need to be honest with yourself as to what emotion is holding you, and your imagination, hostage to a negative world view and in a power struggle with darkness. What you struggle with persists, until it’s healed.
 
When you can heal that in you, there will be less of it in the world. That’s part of being the solution. Heal you first and have less darkness in you first.
 
Then go back to your empowerment and faith in what you DO want to see. 
 
Of course, that’s not always going to be easy- hello- you’re human – and:
Stop giving your power away.
Own that you are powerful, and you choose which to feed: the light or the dark.
Own your light. And if that scares you, dive into why you’re stuck on you not mattering or being shameful etc.
 
What is the story you want to tell about the world? What is the story you want to tell about your place in the world? Are you a champion of the light, or perpetually fighting the dark, getting mired in it, and exhausting yourself? Just as turning on a light in a dark room eradicates the dark, the more light you are, the less dark that exists.
 
I’m standing for the light. Will you join me?
 
 

Everything comes down to your worth: what you think you’re worthy of. You will receive in direct proportion to how worthy you feel.
 
Your priorities are based on your worth: are you worthy of your dreams coming true? If so, you’ll make the time to create that which you desire. If not, as Marie Forleo says, “you’ll make excuses.”
 
Your worth is seen in the people you attract; especially romantic partners. If you don’t feel worthy of love, you’ll attract someone unavailable, distant, maybe someone who uses you or just doesn’t give you what you need. At the worst, you'll attract someone abusive.
 
Your worth shows in your health; do you care for your body and feed it healthy things, or do you punish/ignore/drive it? 
 
Your worth shows in your self-care; do you care how you look and nurture yourself with niceties or do you think, “why bother?”
 
Your worth shows in how you’re treated at work. Are you respected, or ignored? Or worse, ridiculed?

Your worth shows in your finances; are you well compensated for the work you do, or do you allow yourself to be undervalued? Are you wise with your financial decisions, or do you spend/lose money constantly, thus keeping you in debt?

Your worth shows in the circumstances/people you attract into your life. Do you attract things/people that elevate your happiness and bring you joy, or are you mired in negativity and surrounded on all sides by unhappy people and circumstances?
 
Worth starts with you. No one can wave a wand and magically bestow worth on you. You need to own and claim it. It’s there, available for you. Only you can decide to receive and live it. 
 
You may have been taught that you’re unworthy- that’s a lie by people too enmeshed in their own pain and shame to see the truth. Or by people who desired to control you and make you more easily follow what they said. Whatever “authority” figure told you that, they’re wrong; plain and simple. Do not believe them and keep living in your own pain. Rise above and claim your worth.
 
Everything comes back to worth- everything.
 
So right now, put your hands over your heart, close your eyes, feel into the center of yourself, breath and connect to you. When you’re ready, open your eyes and say to yourself:
 
“I am worthy.”
“I am worthy of love.”
“I am worthy of happiness.”
“I am worthy of financial wealth.”
“I am worthy of radiant health.”
“I am worthy of my dreams coming true.”
“I am worthy of ease and grace.”
“I am worthy of laughter and joy.”
“I am worthy of being loved and cherished.”
“I am worthy of pleasure.”
“I am worthy of freedom.”
“I am worthy of being heard.”
“I am worthy of being seen.”
“I am worthy of that job/promotion/raise.”
“I am worthy of nice things.”
“I am worthy of trustworthy friends and associates.”
"I am worthy of relaxation and inner peace."
“I am worthy of Divine assistance.”
"I am worthy of miracles."
“I am worthy of __________”- (fill in the blank with what you most want)
“I am worthy, simply because I am!”
 
Now repeat this daily.
Print it, and post it on your bathroom mirror.
Say it with conviction.
Claim what is rightfully yours.
 
You are absolutely worthy- own that!!! 


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