​I want to talk about forgiveness again. Even though it’s been a topic that I’ve brought up multiple times, its power is unmistakable.
 
I recently had a lightbulb moment when I realized that I was still victimizing myself from an issue I’d been dealing with for about seven years. I was giving my power to one part of a situation versus not only taking my power back, but ultimately, forgiving myself. 

I started doing forgiveness work every morning. I needed to forgive myself for going through it, forgive myself for blaming parts of the event and thus surrendering my power to it, and forgive myself for the level of physical pain it caused.
 
I forgave every physical body issue that resulted from that experience. I forgave myself for choosing that experience; recognizing I was doing the best I could at that time. Then I forgave all the explosive and harmful emotions that were below the physical repercussions. At that point, I realized it was my own rage, fear, and pain that had caused the bodily harm, not the event itself.  
 
I forgave myself for my emotional trauma and all the pockets of stored pain and hurt that were stuck in my physical body. I forgave everything I could think of in regard to that situation; both speaking all I forgave, and using the Ho’oponopono.
 
Most importantly, I forgave myself because I was keeping the pain alive. No one else was doing it to me. I was blaming and causing my own continued suffering. In my anger over the issue, I wasn’t allowing in the healing, nor the transcending, of that pain. The anger and righteousness were winning. And frankly, one can’t heal in that place.
 
After each forgiveness session, and it only took me less than five minutes a day, I would take a moment and let in and receive the energy of forgiveness. I would see it filling up all the places where the trauma and pain were released. I then chose what energy I wanted in its place, for example: love, healing, joy, etc.
 
The more I forgave, the more the remaining emotional pain lifted and became a non-issue. All the charge was gone. The more I forgave, the more the answers came for how to heal the physical ramifications of my emotional trauma. 
 
I no longer blame myself or what I went through. Now my focus is solely on healing and finally laying the past to rest. I’m there emotionally, and almost fully there physically.
 
While this example was on a physical, and ultimately emotional, level, it can be applied to anything.
 
What in your life are you still allowing yourself to be victimized by? And can you take your power back and allow forgiveness in? You may not be able to forgive the actual event, especially if the event was horrific, but can you forgive yourself for going through it? Can you forgive where it’s held you down and prevented the fullest range of your light and sparkle? Can you forgive yourself for experiencing such pain and hurt? 
 
If it’s difficult, have the compassion with yourself that you would give to a little child or a baby animal. You wouldn’t scold them for not knowing differently, why punish yourself?
 
Forgiveness sets you free. It doesn’t negate what happened, it’s not for any other parties involved, it’s for you. Your freedom. Your freedom from suffering and pain. 
 
Give yourself that gift and release the past. It can be too heavy a burden to keep carrying. A brilliant future awaits.


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​I’ve spoken a lot about forgiveness, and it’s come up quite often in sessions lately, because more than anything, forgiveness has the power to shift energy that otherwise seems completely unmovable.
 
If there’s ever anyone or anything in your life that you're in resistance to, or fighting, or it’s creating an intense emotional reaction – all of those things take away your energy. Take your power back and forgive. Forgive yourself for having that situation in your life, and forgive the situation and release it. You don’t even have to know the specifics, the fact that you’re experiencing it and it’s causing distress, is enough to use the power of forgiveness to cut through the blockages so you can gain freedom. 
 
Recently I was asked to do something on a day off that I really didn’t want to do, but knew I needed to. My initial reaction was anger at even being asked. I took a moment, acknowledged why I was angry, and then chose to release the anger, and forgive the other person involved. I truly meant it. I forgave them, and myself. Then I asked for help from the Universe. And wouldn’t you know it, the issue resolved immediately as I was led to the very solution needed, without having to take away any of my down time. It was such a quick and elegant response and showed how beautifully forgiveness can shift an issue.
 
An issue arose a week after that where I lost my iPad and after looking everywhere, again I took a moment to truly forgive myself for misplacing it. Then I released it and surrendered it to the Universe. A few minutes later, as I was ready to walk away, my eyes went to a bag I hadn’t checked. There inside was my pad.
 
I’ve told you forgiveness has the power to shift big issues and relationships, but these stories illustrate that even the smallest of issues can be transformed. 
 
Certain big issues may be harder to forgive than others, but you don’t always have to forgive what happened, because truly sometimes the “what” is unforgivable, just forgive the energy behind it. Forgive yourself for allowing it in your reality or for wanting to learn something by going through that experience. Forgive yourself for attracting it into your life. 
 
We may never know why bad things happen, sometimes its an issue coming from the unconscious or other lifetimes that needs resolving. So instead of beating yourself up, forgive yourself and choose differently.
 
As an aside: I get that if it was an absolutely horrific event, then what I’m saying may not make sense or seem do-able. That’s a much deeper conversation than this blog post. 
 
I’ve told many of you this story, but for those who don’t know, there was a time in my life that somebody came in that was just awful to me. And I don’t attract awful people. But this person was going to be around for the long-haul and I was determined to change the energy. I refused to have that sort of negative energy in my reality. 
 
Every day, I would take a moment to think of them and forgive myself for attracting them into my reality and forgive the pain etc. they were in that was causing their behavior. I wasn’t forgiving their actual behavior, I was forgiving what was behind it, causing them to lash out. I also forgave the energy between us. 
 
To be clear, this was not a saintly act. I wasn’t condoning their behavior by forgiving them. I did this for me; it was totally self-serving because I didn’t want animosity in my life. I set myself free by forgiving myself and them. 
 
I did this consistently for years, every morning, taking maybe 2- or 3-minutes max. The relationship shifted so dramatically, that now it’s wonderfully lovely. Complete night and day to how it was. And I totally credit it with the forgiveness work.
 
You cannot think in a linear way when you’re doing forgiveness work. Nor when you’re choosing to take responsibility for your reality. Because there are certain things that won’t make rational sense to you. And you could say, “Well I didn’t attract this person into my reality or allow them, they came with a marriage, or they’re a friend of a friend, or they came with a new job.” But it’s still your reality. And they’re in your reality for a reason.
 
So you can either rail against them/the situation and go into more resistance, more righteousness, and more anger, or you could start a forgiveness process. Forgiving anything and everything as to why you would allow this type of energy into your reality.
 
Just because it took me a couple years, doesn’t mean it has to take you that long. The energy on the planet is speeding up, things won’t take as long as they needed to before.
 
It might feel like just words at first, but the more you can say the words and truly get into the feeling of forgiveness, the more powerful it will be.
 
As for self-forgiveness, you can forgive yourself for having a pattern of anger in your life, you can forgive yourself for divebombing into self-pity when things don’t go your way, you can forgive yourself for needing to control everything – the list is endless. You can go into forgiveness for anything. Truly mean it though and be willing to release the destructive habits and patterns. If you do this and then fall into that same habit/pattern, forgive again and choose to receive the healing necessary to move forward.
 
Anything can be transformed by the power of forgiveness. You hold the key to that power.
 
 

You always have a choice as to how you see a situation that doesn’t go well or is harder or more difficult than you imagined, and when your best laid plans don’t turn out the way you’d hoped. You can either beat yourself up, or you can say, “I didn’t know what I didn’t know.”
 
I’m in the middle of a project in my personal reality and that is my current mantra when things don’t go as I thought they would.
 
You really can’t know what you don’t know until you’re going through it. There are things that won’t be perfect. There are things you’ll screw up. It doesn’t mean you’re bad and wrong, nor is it wise to use it as an excuse to let your negative ego beat the crap out of you and tell you how awful and stupid you are.
 
The most empowered way to handle missteps and “mistakes” is to forgive yourself, and to recognize that there’s a lot out there you don’t know, and you can only do the best you can with the knowledge and information you currently have. You will always learn more and have more insight the next time.
 
And let me tell you, not only is forgiveness the most self-loving response, it also helps you to find solutions to difficult issues. 
 
The alternative is to dive bomb into the blame and regret of, “I should’ve...” And how does that help you move forward?
 
Forgiveness, lots of deep breaths, and grounding help. Because truly, you don’t know, what you don’t know.
 

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I’ve spoken about the power of forgiveness before and given techniques to facilitate that, but what exactly is forgiveness?
 
The dictionary defines forgiveness as “ceasing to feel resentment against.”
The Greater Good website says more specifically that it is, “a conscious, deliberate decision to release feelings of resentment or vengeance toward a person or group who has harmed you, regardless of whether they actually deserve it.”
 
So given those two, very similar definitions, you can see why it’s such a powerful force. 
 
A “conscious” act- it is a choice. A choice to release the past and move forward. And what does that do? It frees you up. It allows movement where previously there was stagnation or stuck energy. Where previously there was dark, the light can now enter. Where you were once a prisoner, you now have wings. 
 
I will also add that it’s not just about resentments, sometimes it’s about “mistakes,” regrets, angers- anything you are holding onto and not releasing; towards yourself or others.
 
So why don’t we do it more often?
 
Well, sometimes we’re not aware that something needs forgiving; we just know we feel stuck. Other times, we hold those resentments etc. close to our hearts as protection against future pain or as the righteous indignation that “They did this to me and I am not letting them off the hook!” Ahhh, but who is really on the hook? Them? Think again. 
 
That righteous anger may feel good, but where will it get you? Remember would you rather be right, or would you rather be happy? Sure, you can keep holding them accountable, and thereby making yourself the victim in your life. The danger there is believing your victim story, which then renders you to feeling powerless, and wallowing in self-pity or rage. Can love enter into those spaces? No it cannot. 
 
If you say you want love and healing, you need to be willing to release those old places of refuge. Self-pity, victim, martyr, blame- they can feel like old friends, “Hey I know you!” To release them takes courage. To say, “I’ve hidden behind my blame because I’m afraid to truly let love in. I’m afraid it’ll hurt.” That’s step one: recognition and acknowledgement of your part.
 
Next step: choice; do I really need this? What purpose is it serving? Is it allowing, or preventing happiness and am I really ready to let this go? Once you answer those questions, then you make that choice. “Yes, I choose to release these resentments, or this pain, or this slight, etc.” 
 
Final step: forgiveness. “I choose to release, I choose to be free. I am holding others accountable under the faulty pretense that they are holding me back but really, it’s me. I choose forgiveness.”
 
Remember, you can’t change what you won’t own within yourself. You need to take responsibility for everything in your life because it’s YOUR life! There is no they, there is only you. So give yourself the gift of freedom regardless of what’s going on with them and set yourself free. Forgive: everyone and everything, and especially yourself for allowing it on some level, even if it’s deeply unconscious. 
 
The world is changing fast right now; give yourself the gift of forgiveness to step more fully into your greatest, actualized self.

 

(For further information and techniques about working with forgiveness, go to my blogs from September 26th, 2018, or January 16th, 2019)
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Never underestimate the power of forgiveness to shift your reality when things are stuck. On some level, you created it, so you need to take responsibility for it. It is an illusion that “they” are doing it to you. There is no “they,” there is only you. Only you control how you act and respond in any given situation. Therefore, once you take full responsibility, the next step is forgiveness. 
 
You can forgive yourself for why ever you allowed this person/situation in your reality, you can forgive the situation itself, and you can forgive the other person. Ultimately though, you need to be able to forgive yourself. To recognize and acknowledge why you brought this in in the first place. It’s not always necessary to know the specific whys, it could be a faulty belief, a negative thought pattern, or something stuck deep in the unconscious – the point is to truly take responsibility, and forgive yourself, for why ever you are experiencing this pain or trauma.
 
A brilliant way to do this is to use the Ho’oponopono. The Ho’oponopono consists of four lines:
I love you, I’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you.
 
You say these things to yourself, while visualizing or picturing the person or situation that’s causing you stress, or you can say it to the other person.
 
I love you: everything starts with love. You have to start from a place of love to shift the energy, as love is the most powerful force there is.
 
I’m sorry: yes, forgive yourself for why this is in your reality. And genuinely feel sorry that you’ve allowed it.
 
Please forgive me: ask for, and be willing to receive, that forgiveness. It’s yours. 
 
Thank you: gratitude is a powerful energy for change. Truly be grateful that the energy can now transform.
 
I have seen the Ho’oponopono completely transform negative situations and relationships. I use it myself regularly, and sometimes, I go into detail with it. For example, let’s say you’re having financial difficulties. You could say, “I love you self. I’m so sorry we are stuck in this pattern of struggle and lack. Please forgive me for everything keeping me in this trauma. Thank you for helping me with this.”
 
Or with sickness: “I love you body. I’m so sorry I keep creating this illness. Please forgive me for what I’m putting you through. Thank you.” 
 
It is not necessary to detail it, but sometimes I like to start that way, to give my whole being a very specific message of what we are healing. 
 
You can change up the order of the lines too, especially when wanting to shift the energy with another person. For example, while visualizing them you could say (if you were detailing it): 
“Please forgive me, I have absolutely judged and blamed you. I’m so sorry for that and for your pain. Thank you for accepting my apology. I love you.”
 
You may be thinking, “but what if I don’t love them?!” Well, what if you don’t? Can you find the wounded part of them and accept that they aren’t perfect? That they’re doing the best they can too? That rather than sending more anger their way, love can actually heal the rift? I did this once with someone who was causing me great rage and pain. While I didn’t love their actions, I could send love to the truth of them, beyond their body. And you know what, it completely transformed our interactions. What was once acrimonious became harmonious. I didn’t stop once things started to shift, I still continue with it regularly to augment and continue the healing. After all, I allowed this person in my reality, so I can take responsibility for healing the relationship. 
 
It starts with you. There is no one outside of you. You need to be the change. Take responsibility, and allow the forgiveness. Freedom awaits.
 
 
 
 
 

Since I alluded to this in last week’s blog, let’s talk about the power of forgiveness and why it’s so important.
You can’t change anything in your reality unless you are willing to take responsibility for it. On some level you created it, so you need to own that; “I acknowledge my part in this.” Yes, it could be something deeply buried in the subconscious or unconscious- it doesn’t matter, what matters is that you own it. Once you own it, you can actually change it. But first, forgiveness is in order.

Forgiveness is the final step before making a change, and the most powerful one at that; forgiving yourself for why ever you allowed/created the situation in the first place. And that may not be clear, you may have no idea why it’s in your reality. That’s ok, just forgive it. Forgive yourself, and forgive the situation. If you have an understanding, all the better, then you can be specific in your forgiveness.

Let’s say you’re dealing with a health issue. You could say, “I forgive myself for why ever I created or allowed this health scare. I forgive any blocked emotions that got stuck in my body. I forgive and release past traumas that allowed this in. I forgive where I didn’t take care of my body or treat it kindly. I forgive you body, and I forgive me for what I shoved into you. I forgive and release the pain I feel.” 

Same with a situation that causes you distress. Remember, you cannot change anyone else; all you can do is take ownership for your part. Start with forgiveness: “I forgive myself for this creation, I forgive myself for allowing this person/situation into my life. I forgive myself for keeping myself stuck in this pain and inhibiting my freedom. I forgive whatever part of me is getting something from keeping this upset alive. I forgive anywhere that I feel I deserve this. I forgive my fears and where this is keeping me from greater love in my life. I forgive my attachment to this.” Etc. 

You can forgive any and all aspects of yourself, and any and all emotions involved. “I acknowledge and own that my rage contributed to this. I forgive myself for that, I forgive my rage. I forgive where I have refused to let it go. I forgive myself for harboring resentments over this. I forgive myself for staying stuck.” 

Then, most importantly, “As I forgive all of this, I am willing to be different now. I am willing to allow in love and healing. I am willing to see things differently. I am willing to let this go and be new.”
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The forgiveness cannot be hollow, nor can it be just words. Really feel the energy of release. It might take repeated focus. It could have taken years, decades, or lifetimes to have this issue explode out, so don’t judge yourself if it takes time to heal it. But start by forgiving it and forgiving yourself. It’ll set you free from your prison. 

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