There are unspeakable tragedies in the world right now; it’s enough to make you want to scream or curl up in a ball and hide under the covers. And maybe you need to do either, or both.
 
You can’t turn a blind eye, but neither can you let it consume you and take you down a dark rabbit hole. 
 
When you feel helpless, take action. Any positive action to bring your light and your hope to the situation.

​For some that may mean literally being amongst the ground crew; working to bring awareness by volunteering, protesting, or running for office. For some, that may mean financial contributions. For others, it might mean helping and healing the situation energetically. None are more/less valuable than others, they’re simply various ways you’re best equipped to help.
 
Yesterday’s tragic shootings are the latest in the more recent onslaughts. Gun violence may be where your Soul calls you to participate to bring healing and create change. Maybe you’re compassionate about that issue, but the drought and climate change are the areas that draw you in. Maybe it’s the Ukraine, the war on Women’s rights, the continuation of Covid, or the shortage of food in Africa. It might be a combination of these or many other issues.
 
You won’t be effective though if you spread yourself too thin. If you try to help everyone everywhere, you’ll burn yourself out.
 
There are so many areas that need your compassion and light- so pick a few and focus there. When you want to hide and give up, choose to show up instead, even if not literally in person.
 
It can be overwhelming, but as much as possible, don’t allow it to be. 
 
Take your power back and choose to be even more of a light in a world seemingly filled with darkness. 
 
And it is seemingly because if you actually look, there’s more light than ever before, but it can be hard to see. 
 
So look for it, choose to see it. Even the tiniest act of kindness brings more light. Be that for the world. You incarnated during this time for a reason- because you bring something to the world that it needs.
 
Take care of you first, then shine like you’ve never shone before. 

Are you doubting your abilities and if you’re good enough? You’re not alone. Doubt is the biggest killer of dreams.
 
Doubt will have you creating stories of fear and telling yourself why it’s better to just stay in the shadows, “Don’t put yourself out there, people might laugh or worse, ignore you.”
 
If you’re already fearful, the idea of complete humiliation or total dismissal is enough to keep you in procrastination or avoidance.
 
But the world does need you. It needs your insights, your perspective, and your wisdom.
 
“Who me?” You might ask? Yes you. You reading this. 
 
Doubt can block you from speaking up at work, in a relationship, in taking action towards your dreams, or in your creative expression. No area is immune.
 
Let’s confront your doubt, which really is an aspect of your fear…

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Imagine a beautiful bubble of purple/violet light surrounding you to hold you in a safe space.
 
Either close your eyes and put yourself in a calm, meditative space (obviously you’ll need to peek at the prompts below) or grab a journal to write both sides of the conversation. Invite the personification of your Doubt - or your Fear behind it - forward to speak. If you’re in a meditative space, you may see it as a version of you or as a color or shape. Be open to how it appears and don’t anticipate the outcome because it may look like a color you love. That’s a clue as to how it hides and seduces you into listening. If you're writing, let the words from Doubt/Fear flow, without editing what it's saying.
 
Once you see it or sense it’s presence, welcome it and tell it you’d like to dialogue. It’ll only be too happy to speak.
 
Ask it, “What’s the worst thing that could happen if I pursue X and put myself out there?”
 
Then listen to the response, even if it’s awful. Doubt/Fear may give you a concise answer or it may have a litany of terrible scenarios.
 
Once Doubt/Fear is done speaking, say, “I hear you, but what else could happen? What’s below what you spoke of?” 
 
Doubt/Fear may still be upset and ramble, or it’ll get quiet and whisper. Keep asking what’s below until you get to the core wound.
 
How do you find the core wound? Here’s an example:
 
Let’s say in the first inquiry, Doubt/Fear says you’re not smart enough and gives you details of all the ways you’ll be made fun of. When you ask, “What’s below that?” Maybe it’s fear of humiliation and judgment. What’s below that? Maybe it’s a fear of being ostracized. Below that? Fear of abandonment. Below that? Maybe the core is fear of being alone.

Now for someone else, maybe the core is the humiliation, so that person doesn’t need to dig further. 

I've summarized these fears into easy to understand sentences, but you may have to interpret the words/feelings because it may not be so overt.
 
​Go until you feel the truth in your gut. Until you remember when you put yourself out there and something bad happened. Or maybe you saw it happen to someone else and decided you’d never put yourself in that same situation. Maybe it’s a limit one of your parents had. Regardless of whether it’s yours or another’s, find the deep root truth. 
 
Once you know your truth, then you can set about changing that belief system. Write out a quick summary of the responses you got on a blank piece of loose-leaf paper, going to the core wound. When it's complete, call your energy and power back from the list; imagine yourself getting stronger/bigger energetically. 
 
Next, if it’s tied to a specific event or person, jot down the event or person on the same piece of paper. 
 
In your mind, imagine erasing the event/events that lead to this core Doubt/Fear. Take your magic eraser and tell your subconscious that you’re erasing the negative impact from that event(s). Feel even more of your energy coming back to you in present time as you do. If there’s no event you know of, no worries, skip that part and focus on the core wound.
 
Now, cross out everything you’ve written and write “VOID” across it in big letters. Then tear it up and either burn it or throw it away, thus showing your subconscious that you’re done with it. 
 
Once that’s complete, write the opposite of the core wound on a clean piece of paper, the new belief you choose to have instead. Using the example above, you could write, "The more I pursue X, the more love and community there is in my life."

​Find what new belief would excite and engage you. Maybe write it with a colored pen or on a beautiful piece of paper. Write it large! Then read it daily with feeling, until it sinks in and becomes your new reality. 
 
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It’s time to regain your light, your creative expression, your vision. It doesn’t have to be grand, but it does matter because it’s your desire. Our desires were given to us because we have the capability to bring them into being. They’re not there to torture us as something unattainable. So start small; gather your courage. Your courage to pursue that which could augment your life and bring you more joy- from a creative project to a promotion, to a healthier relationship. Do it for you. 
 
Because you can’t control how others will respond, but if you can imagine the pursuit of what you want to bring forth to be of infinite value, you will have good ammo to tell Doubt/Fear, “Not today, thank you.”
 
Then show Doubt/Fear the door.


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Take a deep breath and get present. I want you to actually read and take in these words, versus just skimming over them and dismissing them.
 
With each line, allow the truth to sink deep into your body:
 
 
I matter.
 
Life is not a race; perfection doesn’t earn me points.
 
I’m not more valuable because I achieved this accolade or that status or finished this or that before others.
 
It isn’t about what I do, it’s about who I am.
 
It matters that I take the time to heal myself the way I need.
 
It matters that I give myself the space to feel all the emotions that come up at certain times or on certain days.
 
Taking the time to give myself what I need isn’t an indulgence, it’s a necessity.
 
It matters that I’m gentle with myself and I love myself.
 
Sometimes that means stopping all doing and giving myself the space to breathe and to be.
 
Sometimes that might mean motivating and pushing myself. 
 
Regardless of whether I’m in a phase where I need to be more or to actually get up and do more, I matter. 
 
My presence in the world matters.

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My last few blogs were more intense, and the eclipse this past weekend and another coming up in a couple weeks are stirring emotions/issues up in ourselves, and in the world. 

We need a moment of reprieve, thus everyone’s fave, Oracle Cards!!!

It came to me to choose them differently this time- so, instead of numbers, I want you to sit with what color calls to you today- what color has your message.

I asked what each person who picked, i.e. red, needed to know or needed to heal right now. So whether it's insight you're after, or an answer to a question, center yourself, breathe, and then pick the color that most draws you in.
 
And as I’ve told you before, if your card doesn’t resonate, dig deeper. There’s a reason you pulled it, don’t just dismiss it. Why did you pick that one? What part of you has a message in the card or the color? And if it does resonate, great! 
 
 May your Oracle card bring you clarity and insight!

RED

ORANGE

YELLOW

GREEN

BLUE

PURPLE


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