As we begin this new year, I want to explain to you a visual and process that came to me when talking to a client about dreams, using my personal garden as a reference.
Imagine that all the dreams you’ve had for your life are part of your personal garden. Just like in a real garden, some of your plants/dreams die and if you don’t pull them out and weed them, they overcrowd the space and prevent the new seedlings/dreams from getting the sunlight that they need.
Every time we begin a new relationship or a job or a project, we imagine and put forth all these visions of how it’s going to be and how it’s going to turn out, and we send those dreams into the future. Sometimes though those relationships, jobs, and projects don’t come to fruition or turn out the way we wanted. We’ve invested so much energy dreaming them, that when they die, if the energy isn’t released, it takes up space in our precious plot of land.
Now sometimes you’ve excavated the pain and the emotions associated with the loss of those dreams, and sometimes, you haven’t. Today we’re going to weed what hasn’t been fully released, what still may trigger you, or what you’ve completely forgotten about.
So, here’s a visual you can take yourself through. Read it once fully to get an idea of the steps, and then imagine and see yourself doing what I’m describing:
Take a moment to center yourself and quiet your thoughts. You can even count from five to one if it helps. When you’re ready, close your eyes and imagine that you can go within yourself to find your garden.
See yourself in a beautiful place in nature, walking to a plot of land: it could be a raised garden bed or a plot, but either way, it’s got a boundary to it. That’s the garden of your dreams.
There may be beautiful flowering plants or trellises filled with flowers or fruit, which is fabulous, but today we’re concerning ourselves with what’s between the flowers: dead plants.
Walk over to your garden and if you like, put your gardening gloves on; you’re going to start weeding. Imagine yourself right now pulling all those weeds out, all those old dried up and dead dreams. Some of the dreams you may be aware of, and some you may have no idea what you’re pulling out. There may be dreams from childhood with the fantasies you had, or from when you were a teenager and you thought you would be a famous, fill in the blank. Those need to be weeded.
As you pull the weeds, you may feel emotions welling up. If so, honor those and allow yourself to feel the feelings, be it sadness, rage, resentment- whatever arises. Feel the feelings as you hold that particular dead dream so the energy can be released. Then take your power back from that dream.
Be aware that while some of the dreams have shallow roots, some have very deep roots. At the end of the season, I’ll find my tomato plants have rooted below all the other plants, taking up space and invading my garden. It’s the same with certain dreams. Some dreams you've been so heavily invested in them manifesting, that even as they died, that root system is still there, affecting everything else. You need to dig deep down to excavate all the roots.
When you’ve got a dead plant in hand, imagine either a contained bonfire next to the garden or a big trash can. You need somewhere to toss those weeds. If you throw the weeds into the fire, imagine the fire is burning away the energy of the old, transforming and releasing it. If you put them in a big garbage can, at the end when it’s full, hand the garbage can to your Higher Self to be taken out of your space and again, the energy within, transformed. Either the fire or the trash can is a symbolic way to show your subconscious that you are letting them go.
When all the weeds are gone, see bags of soil enhancer next to the garden. The soil enhancer is love, light, joy, and happiness. Open those bags and dump the contents into the garden and mix them into the soil. See the soil becoming a deep dark brown, rich and full of nutrients.
Now think about what you want to create, and plant the new seeds that you have, the new dreams. If you need time to ponder this, that’s okay, you can come back at any time. In the meantime, feed the plants that are thriving in the garden already, by putting the soil enhancer around them. They’ll now have more space to expand and grow without the dead plants taking up precious minerals.
Feed the garden your love. Imagine it raining love into the soil.
As an add-on if it appeals to you, when you’re done with your garden, see yourself dropping the clothes you’re wearing that have been symbolic of the old you and the places you still were tied to the weeds. Throw those into the fire or hand them over to your Higher Self.
Then off to the side, notice a box with a big bow in your favorite color. Open the box to find it filled with brand new beautiful, sparkling clothes that when you put them on, they feel so good and soft and cozy. They feel light and expansive. They feel energized and vibrant. Wear those as you exit the garden, filled with joy and happiness.
When you're ready, open your eyes and move about your day.
The subconscious speaks in images so this is a powerful way to give it the message of what you no longer want, and what you desire more of.
Get into it, the more emotion you bring the better.
And when you’re done, celebrate your success.
Happy weeding and may your garden sprout phenomenal new dreams!!
I spoke of the battlefield a few weeks ago but I’m bringing this up again now because A: it’s been coming up in so many of your sessions recently, and B: as we move more fully into the age of Aquarius, which is all about cooperation and unity, it’s time to set down the battles that you’ve been waging so that you can create a new reality for yourself.
The idea of a battlefield was originally introduced to me by Lazaris 12 years ago, but recently, it began appearing to me in my personal growth work and in sessions in a very specific way that's quite different than how they taught it.
The best way for me to explain the battlefield, is that there’s a part of you on a figurative, yet very real, battlefield, sword in hand, engaging with the enemy. The battle can be draining you energetically and physically, yet still you persist in fighting.
The main way to know you’re on the battlefield is if there’s an issue that keeps coming back again, over and over. It’s accompanied by the frustration that no matter what you do, the issue won’t seem to budge.
On the battlefield you can be fighting anything: maybe you’re at war with yourself; refusing love, refusing ease, living in lack, punishing yourself, or denying yourself happiness etc. Maybe you’re fighting life; not trusting that you can receive what you want and being stuck in self-pity or victimhood, believing that you’re powerless. Maybe you’re fighting childhood demons, still living as if they can control you now. You could be battling a specific person from the past or present, still trying to create justice. Or maybe you battle your body and its limitations or perceived flaws.
Regardless of what you’re battling, battles take a lot of energy to keep the hatred, resistance or anger etc. alive. Battles can be rage filled or sad or any other emotion. They steal your attention and drain you of joy, peace, and harmony.
A lot of what we fight is in our own minds; wounds and traumas or patterns of negative behavior that the negative ego perpetuates, and we keep living.
Maybe you think you need to keep fighting because it’s just the way it is, and nothing/no one can help you. Not only is that a faulty belief, but it also keeps you engaged with the darkness within you.
Maybe you fight because there’s a righteous part of you that wants the other to get their comeuppance. You want to be the victor at all costs. Unfortunately the cost is you.
When you go to these places emotionally, not only are you feeding the very thing you say you want to release, but it also drops you very low energetically. You cannot find solutions in that place.
Sometimes you need to process through a myriad of emotions to really excavate what’s going on, while working through layers of anger and rage etc. before you can truly put your sword down. And sometimes, you’ve done everything and now it’s time to let it go.
There’s another huge battle that I’m seeing play out which is fighting evil. Many of you came in from lifetimes of actively fighting the dark. It’s in your bones to battle with dark forces of any nature. I get it, that was me for most of my life. Now, I’m not saying it’s bad to want things to be better, what I’m saying is that a consistent battle with the dark not only drains your life force, it keeps the battle going. It keeps the dark present and draws it to you. Anything you in engage in, gives it energy.
The solution to all of this is to lay down your sword and step off the battlefield. In my mind, the battlefield is muddy and dark, yet immediately to the side of the battlefield is beautiful lush green grass. When you set down your sword and walk onto the grass, you keep walking into a magnificent meadow, filled with an abundance of wildflowers, a warm beautiful sun, and the feeling of total calm.
The subconscious understands symbols and feelings even better than words. I’ve written a detailed guided imagery at the bottom of the blog to help you leave the battlefield.
When you step off into the meadow, you allow love and light into the issue you’ve been battling and resisting. You stop feeding it negativity and you feed it love. And I don’t mean just this airy-fairy idea of love, I mean actually infusing that area of your life with the Divine essence of love: yourself, your body, your psyche, your relationships. Inviting in and actively visualizing that love enter that space. Forgiving yourself for anything that has kept you engaged in battle.
Now, I hear some of your protests and questions so let me clarify: I am absolutely horrified by some of the stuff going on in our country and in the world. I do not accept injustice. I completely rail and vent and process through all of my rage etc. and then I take my power back and I start visualizing and putting all of my energy into the solution I choose to see. Into the reality I choose to see. Into the light and the justice. I step off the battlefield so that I’m not engaged and actively fighting over and over with the darkness. I refuse to give the perpetrators more energy. By my disengaging I become more powerful than them. I stand over in the meadow bathed in light. I send that light of healing from a place of empowerment. I become a giant of the light versus sinking into the mud of animosity and darkness.
When you’re stuck in battle, you can’t be your greater self. And your greater self is what’s needed to heal both your personal reality, and the world.
Be willing to set down your sword, and expand your inner light.
Here’s a more detailed visualization for you to set you free:
See yourself on your battlefield. You may know what you’re battling, or you may not. See yourself standing in the thick mud and notice the battle going on around you. Maybe you see many versions of you fighting the enemy, maybe you just hear the clang of swords, or maybe you see yourself bloodied and beaten down while the enemy waits for you to start fighting again. Use your imagination.
Look over and see the clear line of delineation between the mud and the grass. Walk over to line, still on the side of the battlefield, and state that you are willing to stop this battle. Proclaim that you forgive and release yourself and what/who you’re fighting. State that you choose love and freedom instead of this, that you choose peace and harmony.
Set down your sword, and you may even need to line up all the yous from different lifetimes of battling and have every you set their sword down simultaneously. It’s a powerful message of disengaging and empowerment to show your subconscious. Then with purpose, step over the line onto the grass, and watch as that the battle begins to evaporate and disappear.
Once it’s gone, walk deeper into the meadow. Stand in the meadow with your arms outstretched. Notice a golden ball of light above you opening up and raining into your space all of your power and energy that was wrapped up in battle. Then feel the pure energy of love raining in, filling the very spaces where you’d battled. Feel it coming back into you, revitalizing you, filling you, healing and transforming you. The more you fill yourself, the more you remember you have the power to change anything. You remember that love is the greatest healer. And you remember who you really are.
Do this as often as needed to disengage from battle. If it’s been a stubborn issue, you may need to repeat this process a few times until your subconscious gets the message.
May it bring you phenomenal peace.
Right now, with many losing their minds, it’s important to remember to not engage crazy. There are those who thrive on drama, who want to sweep you into their mess, who want to amp up discord. However, as I’ve reminded you often lately, you don’t need to participate.
One of my favorite metaphors comes from my friend Linda Foley. She always told me to stay off the crazy playground. What is the crazy playground you ask?
The way I think of the crazy playground is as if imagining yourself stuck on a carousel, and you just keep circling around and around with either a person or an issue. It doesn’t stop moving, it’s up to you to step off.
How do you know you’re on the crazy playground? When you’re engaging in a battle. When a fight has escalated beyond what it’s even really about. When someone has no interest in looking at their part of their mess and simply wants to blame. When someone is sinking into their own story and refuses any bit of sane advice. When you’re arguing over and over and over and getting nowhere.
It’s anytime you can tell the other person doesn’t hear you, or you’re mired in an old pattern, or with somebody who’s stuck in their negative ego- and you just keep circling around and around and around, and refuse to take the highroad and walk away.
Here’s an example: a client of mine has a mother that always has a crisis going on, always needing something. The mother thrives on drama. She dumps it on my client and expects my client to fix it all. Eventually, through talking about this metaphor, my client realized that she’s constantly on the crazy playground with her mother. Always engaging the crazy by responding to it, and/or resisting it. Resistance still keeps you on the playground. It wasn’t until she took her power back one day and realized that:
A: she was not at her mother’s beck and call and could simply not answer the phone – to which to some of you might say, “well duh,” but to others who know what it’s like when somebody needs you and is continually looking to you for something, that’s not always easy.
And B: when her mom started dumping all of the issues on her, she simply said, “I cannot help you today. I hope you’re able to fix that problem. I have to go now, we’ll talk soon.”
She let her mom know that she would not be there to solve that particular problem, nor any other problems coming up. She held the boundary of her sanity being more important than being on that merry go round of crazy.
There’s not just a merry go round on the crazy playground, there’s also a teeter totter- where someone is always up and the other is always down- a swing set, the monkey bars – they can all be metaphors for however the crazy is playing out.
You won’t always recognize that you’re stuck there. Sometimes you simply think you’re engaging in dialogue or discussion. But notice if it keeps going in circles. Notice if there always has to be a winner and a loser. Notice if you’re so used to it that you don’t realize that you are worthy and deserving of peace and serenity.
Regardless of which vehicle you’re on in the playground, ultimately, sanity comes from disengaging and walking away. Do you want to be right, or do you want to be happy? Do you want tranquility, or do you want conflict?
You take your power back by not only stepping off the merry-go-round, but actually walking to the edge of the playground, opening the gate, and closing it behind you to completely detach and liberate yourself.
In my imagination, the land outside the gate of the crazy playground is serene, peaceful, and beautiful.
You deserve to be there. When you find yourself in the crazy playground, use the imagery of walking out, closing the gate, and then set the boundaries needed, cut the cords, and choose peace instead of chaos. Focus on being the best you that you can be, and don’t give your power away to anything/anyone that disrupts your calm.
If it helps, in your head say, “Not my circus, not my monkeys.”
The more you disengage from crazy, the more you teach your subconscious that you won't allow it in your reality, thereby creating more harmonious people/circumstances in your life.
You are worthy of contentment and well-being.
May you find peace and sanity this week!
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