I had a blog that I wrote for this week considering what went down last Wednesday here in the U.S., but I can tell that so many of you are just fried and need some gentle love this week. So, these are nothing new, they’re simply reminders that you might need right now:
 
The light is more powerful than the dark. Your light is more powerful than your dark.
 
The world is changing, and the patriarchy and young souls are acting up and screaming, terrified of the changes. Don’t feed into the fear and the anger. Heal the places in you that are fearful and angry; wrap them in love and compassion. The more compassion you give to yourself, the more you send that frequency into the world.

Forgiveness on all levels is the most profound healer. In your personal reality, forgive yourself and anyone or anything that you feel is blocking/inhibiting you. You have the power to set yourself free.
 
On that vein, there are no victims. Call your power back from wherever you’re sending it.
 
Yes the exhaustion is real right now. I feel it, and I know many of you do as well. There could be a myriad of reasons, but the energy is intense and it’s knocking a lot of people out. It’s not only what went down in Washington, as well as increased fears/fatigue around Covid, but it’s also the intensity of light streaming in to help us grow and evolve. Take good care of you as you detox your pain and the pain in the world, and as your body adapts to higher frequencies of light.
 
Boundaries are necessary. Remove any energy vampires out of your reality if you can. Say no to any added burdens. 
 
Grounding is not a luxury, it’s a necessity. It helps you process and release both the chaos in the world, and it helps you to accept the higher frequencies coming in. Cutting cords is also necessary, not only with the news and with social media, but with others. Also remove any psychic hooks that attach you to your phone/news/social media. You don’t need to know exactly where they are, just ask your Higher Self to gently remove them and send them to the light to be transmuted and transformed. 
 
Breathe. We will get through this. You chose to be born during this time. Lead from your light as much as you can, and work through your own rage etc. The more you heal you, the more you heal the world.
 
 
 
 
 
For those of you who are new to some of these topics, the highlighted words above will provide links to prior blogs to better explain the subject. You can also read more in the categories to the right.
 

I spoke of the battlefield a few weeks ago but I’m bringing this up again now because A: it’s been coming up in so many of your sessions recently, and B: as we move more fully into the age of Aquarius, which is all about cooperation and unity, it’s time to set down the battles that you’ve been waging so that you can create a new reality for yourself. 

The idea of a battlefield was originally introduced to me by Lazaris 12 years ago, but recently, it began appearing to me in my personal growth work and in sessions in a very specific way that's quite different than how they taught it.
 
The best way for me to explain the battlefield, is that there’s a part of you on a figurative, yet very real, battlefield, sword in hand, engaging with the enemy. The battle can be draining you energetically and physically, yet still you persist in fighting. 
 
The main way to know you’re on the battlefield is if there’s an issue that keeps coming back again, over and over. It’s accompanied by the frustration that no matter what you do, the issue won’t seem to budge.
 
On the battlefield you can be fighting anything: maybe you’re at war with yourself; refusing love, refusing ease, living in lack, punishing yourself, or denying yourself happiness etc. Maybe you’re fighting life; not trusting that you can receive what you want and being stuck in self-pity or victimhood, believing that you’re powerless. Maybe you’re fighting childhood demons, still living as if they can control you now. You could be battling a specific person from the past or present, still trying to create justice. Or maybe you battle your body and its limitations or perceived flaws.
 
Regardless of what you’re battling, battles take a lot of energy to keep the hatred, resistance or anger etc. alive. Battles can be rage filled or sad or any other emotion. They steal your attention and drain you of joy, peace, and harmony. 
 
A lot of what we fight is in our own minds; wounds and traumas or patterns of negative behavior that the negative ego perpetuates, and we keep living. 

Maybe you think you need to keep fighting because it’s just the way it is, and nothing/no one can help you. Not only is that a faulty belief, but it also keeps you engaged with the darkness within you. 
 
Maybe you fight because there’s a righteous part of you that wants the other to get their comeuppance. You want to be the victor at all costs. Unfortunately the cost is you.
 
When you go to these places emotionally, not only are you feeding the very thing you say you want to release, but it also drops you very low energetically. You cannot find solutions in that place. 
 
Sometimes you need to process through a myriad of emotions to really excavate what’s going on, while working through layers of anger and rage etc. before you can truly put your sword down. And sometimes, you’ve done everything and now it’s time to let it go. 
 
There’s another huge battle that I’m seeing play out which is fighting evil. Many of you came in from lifetimes of actively fighting the dark. It’s in your bones to battle with dark forces of any nature. I get it, that was me for most of my life. Now, I’m not saying it’s bad to want things to be better, what I’m saying is that a consistent battle with the dark not only drains your life force, it keeps the battle going. It keeps the dark present and draws it to you. Anything you in engage in, gives it energy.
 
The solution to all of this is to lay down your sword and step off the battlefield. In my mind, the battlefield is muddy and dark, yet immediately to the side of the battlefield is beautiful lush green grass. When you set down your sword and walk onto the grass, you keep walking into a magnificent meadow, filled with an abundance of wildflowers, a warm beautiful sun, and the feeling of total calm.
 
The subconscious understands symbols and feelings even better than words. I’ve written a detailed guided imagery at the bottom of the blog to help you leave the battlefield. 

When you step off into the meadow, you allow love and light into the issue you’ve been battling and resisting. You stop feeding it negativity and you feed it love. And I don’t mean just this airy-fairy idea of love, I mean actually infusing that area of your life with the Divine essence of love: yourself, your body, your psyche, your relationships. Inviting in and actively visualizing that love enter that space. Forgiving yourself for anything that has kept you engaged in battle. 
 
Now, I hear some of your protests and questions so let me clarify: I am absolutely horrified by some of the stuff going on in our country and in the world. I do not accept injustice. I completely rail and vent and process through all of my rage etc. and then I take my power back and I start visualizing and putting all of my energy into the solution I choose to see. Into the reality I choose to see. Into the light and the justice. I step off the battlefield so that I’m not engaged and actively fighting over and over with the darkness. I refuse to give the perpetrators more energy. By my disengaging I become more powerful than them. I stand over in the meadow bathed in light. I send that light of healing from a place of empowerment. I become a giant of the light versus sinking into the mud of animosity and darkness. 
 
When you’re stuck in battle, you can’t be your greater self. And your greater self is what’s needed to heal both your personal reality, and the world.
 
Be willing to set down your sword, and expand your inner light.
 
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Here’s a more detailed visualization for you to set you free:
 
See yourself on your battlefield. You may know what you’re battling, or you may not. See yourself standing in the thick mud and notice the battle going on around you. Maybe you see many versions of you fighting the enemy, maybe you just hear the clang of swords, or maybe you see yourself bloodied and beaten down while the enemy waits for you to start fighting again. Use your imagination. 
 
Look over and see the clear line of delineation between the mud and the grass. Walk over to line, still on the side of the battlefield, and state that you are willing to stop this battle. Proclaim that you forgive and release yourself and what/who you’re fighting. State that you choose love and freedom instead of this, that you choose peace and harmony. 
 
Set down your sword, and you may even need to line up all the yous from different lifetimes of battling and have every you set their sword down simultaneously. It’s a powerful message of disengaging and empowerment to show your subconscious. Then with purpose, step over the line onto the grass, and watch as that the battle begins to evaporate and disappear. 
 
Once it’s gone, walk deeper into the meadow. Stand in the meadow with your arms outstretched. Notice a golden ball of light above you opening up and raining into your space all of your power and energy that was wrapped up in battle. Then feel the pure energy of love raining in, filling the very spaces where you’d battled. Feel it coming back into you, revitalizing you, filling you, healing and transforming you. The more you fill yourself, the more you remember you have the power to change anything. You remember that love is the greatest healer. And you remember who you really are.
 
Do this as often as needed to disengage from battle. If it’s been a stubborn issue, you may need to repeat this process a few times until your subconscious gets the message.
 
May it bring you phenomenal peace.
 

As we get closer to a Presidential election, I want to remind you of the power of your voice. 
 
Some of you very fervently recognize the power of casting a vote. And some of you hate the system so much, that you don’t care, and you don’t bother voting; you think it doesn’t matter.
 
I’m here to tell you that it does.
 
Now before you dismiss me, I want you to look at the bigger message that you’re telling your subconscious when you refuse to cast a vote. Essentially, you’re telling yourself that you have no say. That forces outside your control will decide things anyway, and you are powerless. You’re telling yourself that your voice doesn’t matter. That’s a dangerous message to affirm to your subconscious.
 
You may argue with me and say that no, it’s simply that you’re fed up, but look below that. Really recognize what you’re teaching yourself  about your powerlessness by your inaction. 
 
If you’re a woman, do you know what it took to get women the right to vote? If you truly don’t know the history, then you need to look it up. Women went through awful, awful circumstances to be able to gain that privilege. Do not turn your back on that. There are countries now in 2020 where women have no say. Don’t willing deny your voice.
 
If you feel apathetic, that apathy will spill into other areas of your life. If you’re mad that your candidate is not up there, it’s not a perfect system. However, you need to truly look in your heart to see who you think has the leadership qualities or the ability to match what you want in a leader. By your vote, you say what you do and do not stand for.
 
You are no victim. If you don’t like the way things are turning out, then speak up by casting a vote. 
 
Own your empowerment. Your vote matters. Your voice counts.
 
 
 

Right now, with many losing their minds, it’s important to remember to not engage crazy. There are those who thrive on drama, who want to sweep you into their mess, who want to amp up discord. However, as I’ve reminded you often lately, you don’t need to participate. 
 
One of my favorite metaphors comes from my friend Linda Foley. She always told me to stay off the crazy playground. What is the crazy playground you ask?  
 
The way I think of the crazy playground is as if imagining yourself stuck on a carousel, and you just keep circling around and around with either a person or an issue. It doesn’t stop moving, it’s up to you to step off.
 
How do you know you’re on the crazy playground? When you’re engaging in a battle. When a fight has escalated beyond what it’s even really about. When someone has no interest in looking at their part of their mess and simply wants to blame. When someone is sinking into their own story and refuses any bit of sane advice. When you’re arguing over and over and over and getting nowhere. 
 
It’s anytime you can tell the other person doesn’t hear you, or you’re mired in an old pattern, or with somebody who’s stuck in their negative ego- and you just keep circling around and around and around, and refuse to take the highroad and walk away. 
 
Here’s an example: a client of mine has a mother that always has a crisis going on, always needing something. The mother thrives on drama. She dumps it on my client and expects my client to fix it all. Eventually, through talking about this metaphor, my client realized that she’s constantly on the crazy playground with her mother. Always engaging the crazy by responding to it, and/or resisting it. Resistance still keeps you on the playground. It wasn’t until she took her power back one day and realized that:
A: she was not at her mother’s beck and call and could simply not answer the phone – to which to some of you might say, “well duh,” but to others who know what it’s like when somebody needs you and is continually looking to you for something, that’s not always easy.
And B: when her mom started dumping all of the issues on her, she simply said, “I cannot help you today. I hope you’re able to fix that problem. I have to go now, we’ll talk soon.” 
 
She let her mom know that she would not be there to solve that particular problem, nor any other problems coming up. She held the boundary of her sanity being more important than being on that merry go round of crazy.
 
There’s not just a merry go round on the crazy playground, there’s also a teeter totter- where someone is always up and the other is always down- a swing set, the monkey bars – they can all be metaphors for however the crazy is playing out.
 
You won’t always recognize that you’re stuck there. Sometimes you simply think you’re engaging in dialogue or discussion. But notice if it keeps going in circles. Notice if there always has to be a winner and a loser. Notice if you’re so used to it that you don’t realize that you are worthy and deserving of peace and serenity.
 
Regardless of which vehicle you’re on in the playground, ultimately, sanity comes from disengaging and walking away. Do you want to be right, or do you want to be happy? Do you want tranquility, or do you want conflict?
 
You take your power back by not only stepping off the merry-go-round, but actually walking to the edge of the playground, opening the gate, and closing it behind you to completely detach and liberate yourself. 
 
In my imagination, the land outside the gate of the crazy playground is serene, peaceful, and beautiful.
 
You deserve to be there. When you find yourself in the crazy playground, use the imagery of walking out, closing the gate, and then set the boundaries needed, cut the cords, and choose peace instead of chaos. Focus on being the best you that you can be, and don’t give your power away to anything/anyone that disrupts your calm.

If it helps, in your head say, “Not my circus, not my monkeys.”

The more you disengage from crazy, the more you teach your subconscious that you won't allow it in your reality, thereby creating more harmonious people/circumstances in your life.
 
You are worthy of contentment and well-being.
 
May you find peace and sanity this week!
 
 
 

Today I’m sharing a story to illustrate why I’m always telling you that you are responsible for your reality and your personal power:
 
This past week I was having a lovely Wednesday, everything was falling into place effortlessly and every errand was easy. Then I got to a grocery store that I hadn’t been to since the start of the pandemic. I was in a line for a bit, didn’t see any door monitor, and watched as a person would enter the store when someone else would come out. When it was my turn, as I was about to enter the store, the person who was supposed to be monitoring the door came running over and screamed at me because unbeknownst to me, the person who walked out was an employee dressed in regular street clothes. She did not say this nicely, she laid into me. It was shocking, and I calmly explained that how could I know the situation? She stormed off. Then I went into the store and asked an employee a question and the employee was phenomenally rude. At that point, I lost all neutrality; I was furious and just wanted out of there. I grabbed the few items I needed and left. 
 
I knew I had to clear my space, as I remind all of you, as I could still feel the attack energy from the first person. I said the Archangel Michael prayer and separated out energy, but I still felt awful. I was grumbling and bitching to myself and to my husband via text, that they just ruined my day. And then it occurred to me, why was I giving them the power to ruin my day? It was MY day and it had been going wonderfully. I needed to take responsibility.
 
Now, am I saying I was responsible for her flying off the handle at me? No! Clearly, she and the other girl were going through something and taking it out on me. I could have continued to take it personally and let it ruin more of my day, but then I would be giving them the keys to my sanity. Uh, no thanks! Neither of them were worth it. 
 
So, I 
1: Started smacking them all out of my space- literally smacking their energy out, while saying authoritatively to, "Get out of my space!" Remember- own your crown chakra, own your authority. No one else can be in your space unless you let them. 
 
I lobbed both their energies out of my space and back to them (I first cleared it nicely, sent it to the Universe, but that didn’t do it. Sometimes a person leaves their imprint on you and you need to send it back, like you’re playing tennis/baseball/golf). 
 
2:
I then imagined cutting all cords of energy between us- all communications, all energy exchange.
 
3:
I started sucking my power back in, repeatedly, until I felt lighter. 
(I wrote extensively about taking your power back in my previous blog. Read here to learn the technique.) 
 
4:
I started proclaiming that it was my day and therefore I was choosing that the rest of it would be easy and elegant. 

 
After doing these, I completely shifted the remainder of my day; it was back to being wonderful. I owned/created my reality by my response. That’s what I mean by taking responsibility and taking your power back (which is being empowered).
 
I think this is important to remember because it’s not only in big ways that you give your power away, it’s the daily little things. 
 
You choose how you react in circumstances and who you give the keys to your peace of mind. Choose wisely! If someone awful comes in and tries to take your peace, don’t let them! You are responsible for your reaction and your energy.
 
Same with the past: are you still letting someone/something in the past determine your reality now? Do the techniques listed; stop dragging the past forward.
 
And if the four steps above aren’t enough, go into a rage bubble, journal it, scream it in a safe way or beat your bed with a pillow. Get it out of you. 
 
Remind yourself – “I create my reality."
​Own your personal power now.
 
 
 

Everything comes down to your worth: what you think you’re worthy of. You will receive in direct proportion to how worthy you feel.
 
Your priorities are based on your worth: are you worthy of your dreams coming true? If so, you’ll make the time to create that which you desire. If not, as Marie Forleo says, “you’ll make excuses.”
 
Your worth is seen in the people you attract; especially romantic partners. If you don’t feel worthy of love, you’ll attract someone unavailable, distant, maybe someone who uses you or just doesn’t give you what you need. At the worst, you'll attract someone abusive.
 
Your worth shows in your health; do you care for your body and feed it healthy things, or do you punish/ignore/drive it? 
 
Your worth shows in your self-care; do you care how you look and nurture yourself with niceties or do you think, “why bother?”
 
Your worth shows in how you’re treated at work. Are you respected, or ignored? Or worse, ridiculed?

Your worth shows in your finances; are you well compensated for the work you do, or do you allow yourself to be undervalued? Are you wise with your financial decisions, or do you spend/lose money constantly, thus keeping you in debt?

Your worth shows in the circumstances/people you attract into your life. Do you attract things/people that elevate your happiness and bring you joy, or are you mired in negativity and surrounded on all sides by unhappy people and circumstances?
 
Worth starts with you. No one can wave a wand and magically bestow worth on you. You need to own and claim it. It’s there, available for you. Only you can decide to receive and live it. 
 
You may have been taught that you’re unworthy- that’s a lie by people too enmeshed in their own pain and shame to see the truth. Or by people who desired to control you and make you more easily follow what they said. Whatever “authority” figure told you that, they’re wrong; plain and simple. Do not believe them and keep living in your own pain. Rise above and claim your worth.
 
Everything comes back to worth- everything.
 
So right now, put your hands over your heart, close your eyes, feel into the center of yourself, breath and connect to you. When you’re ready, open your eyes and say to yourself:
 
“I am worthy.”
“I am worthy of love.”
“I am worthy of happiness.”
“I am worthy of financial wealth.”
“I am worthy of radiant health.”
“I am worthy of my dreams coming true.”
“I am worthy of ease and grace.”
“I am worthy of laughter and joy.”
“I am worthy of being loved and cherished.”
“I am worthy of pleasure.”
“I am worthy of freedom.”
“I am worthy of being heard.”
“I am worthy of being seen.”
“I am worthy of that job/promotion/raise.”
“I am worthy of nice things.”
“I am worthy of trustworthy friends and associates.”
"I am worthy of relaxation and inner peace."
“I am worthy of Divine assistance.”
"I am worthy of miracles."
“I am worthy of __________”- (fill in the blank with what you most want)
“I am worthy, simply because I am!”
 
Now repeat this daily.
Print it, and post it on your bathroom mirror.
Say it with conviction.
Claim what is rightfully yours.
 
You are absolutely worthy- own that!!! 


Print out for your mirror:

It takes courage to listen to your gut and act on it, even when your rational mind tells you otherwise.
 
It takes courage to voice your truth and the truth of who you are, even if you know you will be met with a lack of approval.
 
It takes courage to follow your dreams, even when you fear failing.
 
It takes courage to open your heart, especially when you’ve been hurt before.
 
It takes courage to say, “No, I will not allow this,” in relation to either your own personal boundaries, or something you see going on in the world. To put your foot down and take a stand is courageous. 
 
It takes courage to leave your comfort zone and venture into the unknown. That can be with a new job, relationship, place to live, or simply expressing a different opinion than what you had always been taught.
 
It takes courage to differ from your family of origin and to know that they may be disappointed.
 
It takes courage to proclaim to yourself that you refuse to live a life defined by anyone else’s rules or expectations, and that you are going to follow your own path one step at a time, creating happiness each and every moment. Finding what brings you fulfillment versus what your family/society/religion tells you.
 
It takes courage to find the answers within, versus acquiescing to, or parroting, everyone else's opinions and thoughts.

It takes courage to be truthful with how we feel, versus people pleasing. 
 
It takes courage to admit you were wrong, and do what you can to make it right. 
 
It takes courage to think outside the box and look at things from a new perspective, or to create something that has never been imagined before.
 
It takes courage to silence the loud ego mind, and to listen to/act from the still quiet voice within.
 
It takes courage to stop defending against your actions/reactions, and really look at your part in a situation/conflict.
 
It takes courage to forgive, when you want to punish. For ultimately, that is the gift that will set you free.

Speaking of courage, I encourage you to seek out and read perspectives and information on racism and the subtle and insidious ways it shows itself in the collective consciousness. It’s not always overt, the subtle has done just as much damage.

It’s easy to say, "I’m not racist," and dismiss what I’m saying, yet I ask you to look at it from a place of humility versus defending against your position.

It takes courage to say, "Wow, where have I unconsciously contributed to, or even been unaware of, the situation? Where can I learn and uncover my issues to do better and be better?"

​ It starts with you.

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It seems that the worst of humanity is coming out right now. I’m watching friends get attacked for posts that are very calm and loving, people taking advantage of the protests by rioting, lots of shaming of others for trying to be supportive, and incredible righteousness over who’s right/wrong; it’s enough to make you lose faith…
 
I know many of you are overwhelmed. The energy is remarkably intense and destructive. 
 
And yet, in the depths of darkness, in the dimness of the cocoon, the caterpillar is being dissolved to allow it to become the butterfly.
 
Do not give your power to impotence, to thinking there’s nothing you can do. 
 
It may seem fluff, but the vision has to start with you; each of us individually owning the reality we want to see and then creating it, one step at a time, one election at a time, to create a revolutionary change at a core level. 
 
Each of us healing ourselves and our own violent anger, rage, and pain so that there’s less of those energies in the world. 
 
It starts with our individual hearts and minds choosing to see a reality of equality and inclusiveness. 
 
Now more then ever, it’s important to use your voice. Your voice matters, you deserve to be heard. Speak for those who cannot speak. Use for your voice for those who have no voice or whose voices have been silenced. 
 
You may not literally go out and speak, you can voice it through your art, through your acts of kindness, through the people and companies you support. Through the products you buy and the things you listen to. Through the love you send to the world. And through the declaration to the world, even if done in the privacy of your home, of saying:
 
“Enough! I refuse a reality of exclusiveness. I refuse a reality of domination. I refuse a reality of inequality.”
 
You may feel powerless but you’re not. 
 
Never underestimate the power of the imagination. If you can see it in your imagination, you can believe it, and then you can create it and live it. If you don’t create it in your world, how will you see it in the world?
 
I wrote a blog that I posted on Instagram on Sunday and in it, I said that what I do doesn’t feel like enough. I recognized the next morning that I gave my power away to a false idea. My form of voice and power may not look like the way others express theirs, and that’s OK. We need a contrast of strengths to lift each other up.
 
So dream. Dream big. Be powerful in your dreams. Own your visions. Join me and together we can dream into being a world more phenomenal than we can even imagine. 
 
Let’s be the visionaries for a new world. I’m holding the light of hope for you, will you accept it?
 
 
 


​ To listen to the audio version of this blog, click here.
 
 
 
 

I’ve had to really take my power back lately: from externals- such as the global crisis and Covid restrictions, to internals- my inner child, adolescent, and negative ego. I've also had to pull my power and energy back from wanting to future trip and think about something farther off in my day/week, and worry about it. It’s been more obvious to me lately when I do this, and thus, when I do and take my power back,  I am so much more present, centered, calm, and empowered.

​Which leads me to today's topic: I want to address something that has been coming up a lot lately: the idea that an issue you have can’t be fixed or that nothing can help you. 
 
These are beliefs. They are only as true as the energy that you give them. They do not need to be true. Repetitive thought makes them true. Then the universe shows you the very thing that you keep repeating to yourself.
 
You can argue with me that truly nothing you do seems to shift an issue. Let’s break that apart then:
 
First, you believe it. You believe it fully. The universe is complying with that belief and making sure that nothing you do works.
 
Let’s just play with the idea that that belief could be faulty. I get it, I really do. I hear the angst in your voice; I know the frustration. You’re at your wits end. Things don’t seem to shift. So humor me for a moment. Are you willing to own that your thought could be a lie? Just open to it.
 
Do you know for certain that the universe has not been trying to help you only to have it be rebounded back? You don’t, so let’s say that’s the case. You may not be receiving/allowing the help you need because of the paradigm in which you grew up where when you asked for help, either you didn’t receive what you wanted, bad things happened, or you were hurt etc. Have you personified the universe to be exactly like the authority figures when you were growing up? Is the universe benevolent and generous or withholding and limiting? 
 
Next step: where have you given away your power to believe that your statement is true?
 
That is the core of it, that is the frustration of it: the idea that you keep doing everything and nothing is working. You are essentially powerless. 
 
That my friends is an enormous lie. I think probably the biggest one out there. What better way to control somebody than to make them think they’re powerless?
 
Yes, you were powerless as a child. As an adolescent too. You had to follow the rules or the consequences could be severe. Especially as a little child. 
 
However, those parts of you are no longer allowed to run the show. They may have colored your current worldview based on the past, and are still getting something by keeping the pattern going. You can talk to those aspects and let them know you’re creating a new reality. You may need to do deeper work with them, but ultimately you the adult makes the conscious present moment choice. You have the power in the now to choose differently.
 
You may also have given your power away to your negative ego. The negative ego seduces you with fear, worry, and anxiety. It wants you scared and afraid of everything. It will convince you that they’re doing it to you. Or even that there are dark forces looming over you, just waiting to attack. Both of these perpetuate the idea of powerlessness. 
 
I get that when you feel so powerless it makes sense that it’s external. However, when you do a deep dive into your own negative ego and shadow, you uncover the truth; that the answer is within. That’s where the lie of powerlessness festers.
 
As you look to these areas, the more aware you become, the more you can take your power back.
 
And to deepen what I’m saying, as I said above, your power is in your choice. Even if you’re in an unpleasant situation and it seems that your options aren’t great, you still have the power to choose how to respond. You can respond from your child, negative ego or adolescent, or you the adult can choose a higher response. You have the power to change any situation by your thoughts and attitudes about it. That’s power. To not give anything external, or even the internal monkey mind, the ability to ruin your serenity. Personal power is taking the tools at your disposal and making the best of them. 
 
The universe actually is on your side, so stop fighting for your limitations.
 
You have to be the light first and that entails owning your personal power so call it back. You’re not your mind, not your body, not your thoughts, not your ego. You are a powerful infinite being of light, never forget this. 
 
 
 
(For further help in taking your power back, click here.)

I’m always telling you to author your reality, but in a practical sense, how does one do that? 
 
It’s actually both simple and it requires conscious recognition which might not always be easy. Yet it is absolutely doable and the results are fantastic.
 
So how do you begin? Awareness is key. Here’s an exercise to start the process. It originated from my healer friend Rose Colarossi, with a modification from me. It reminds me of morning pages from Julia Cameron, but with a twist: 

1- Each morning in your journal, on the left side of the page, vent away. Everything you really feel and think, no holding back or editing. Use the page to get it out of you and onto paper. 
2- When you’re done, look back through what you wrote and in red ink, cross out all the negative words, sentences,  shoulds, and have to’s, etc.
3- Rewrite the story of your venting in positive ways on the right side of the paper, even if it’s not true. For example, change, “I hated waking up this morning. I’m so crabby and tired” to “I woke up refreshed and filled with energy and enthusiasm for my day!”
4- As your rewrite most likely won’t take a full page, with the remainder of the paper, write what you’re grateful for, at least 5 things.
 
You may discount this at first as being silly or stupid, but the more you do it, the more you’re showing your subconscious what you do want and the more you will find yourself shifting away from negative thoughts/feelings and into a more positive reality.
 
Now with that, notice your thoughts/feelings not just in the morning, but throughout your day. If you’re grumbling and bitching, can you see the situation differently? Can you change those negatives into a new positive perspective? Yes you can and the more you do, the more of that positive you’ll attract. 

Now look, you’re human, some days you really need to allow yourself to go dark and process whatever is going on. I’ve written about that before to help you during those times. This isn’t that, this is, on a moment-by-moment basis, how am I choosing to see and respond to the world? Because it’s all a choice. No one is doing anything to you, you are not powerless. I’ll keep repeating that until you hear it. 
 
By your thoughts and emotions, you are attracting people/situations to you, so why not author a great reality? Anything can be changed, nothing is set in stone. You have the power to turn around a bad day. And if it’s really bad, then hide under the covers and give yourself a reprieve. Without judgment!
 
However, daily get into a new habit: own your power, own your voice and own your authorship. Choose better thoughts and emotions that uplift you. Even if they’re not “true.” Who cares! Your subconscious won’t know the difference, it just brings to you what you’re asking for.
 
Give yourself permission to write the story the way you want it to be. Stop battling your negative ego and monkey mind and over-ride them by raising your vibration and ignoring their “poor me story.” No one else has the power to write your story, so stop giving responsibility away to others. You are the author. Live from what you’re creating versus merely being in reaction to what’s happening. 
 
Challenge your thoughts: “Why do I think that? Is it really true?
Challenge your emotions: “Is this feeling in present time or am I in reaction old pain and wounds? What is this emotion trying to tell me?”
Then forgive the old thoughts and emotions and choose again. 
 
Write a kick ass novel you’re proud to share. Remember, your light is way more powerful than any dark, so for 2020, author an extraordinary new story filled with everything that makes your heart sing with joy. It is your reality after all.